When my vision became clearer, I realized that I am such a wreck.
I look ahead, and only see how far short I am from the goal.
But do I stop running and give in to hopelessness? Do I let the tiredness I feel in my being stop me?
No!
I fix my eyes on my goal. I keep running forward. I keep running towards my goal - Jesus.
Disney Sunset
Disney Sunset
15.9.09
14.9.09
I'd rather be in struggles.
Issues are issues, whether drastic or not.
What gives us the right to diss or judge others because they are dealing with issues that we are not? Just because we have our life right at this moment does not entitle us to comment about the not-right's in another's life in a disrespectful manner especially in front of other people.
I'd rather you don't mention that person's name in front of me. One's impression on me is for him or her to make, not for you to make.
Now I have to think twice about sharing my struggles. What if it is spoken so freely and openly to another just like how the issues of another were spoken in front of me?
Oh what the heck...
It's definitely good to have my life right. But if I lose compassion and the ability to understand what it's like in another's shoes and the sort of perspective another might have in their struggles, I'd rather be in struggles myself so that I don't become self-righteous.
At least in my struggles, I would totally understand, and will definitely learn to understand.
It's like: The best pal who can help a drug addict to break free is another drug addict who has overcome the addiction.
I'd rather be in struggles than be like you... Everyone has issues. Admit it.
What gives us the right to diss or judge others because they are dealing with issues that we are not? Just because we have our life right at this moment does not entitle us to comment about the not-right's in another's life in a disrespectful manner especially in front of other people.
I'd rather you don't mention that person's name in front of me. One's impression on me is for him or her to make, not for you to make.
Now I have to think twice about sharing my struggles. What if it is spoken so freely and openly to another just like how the issues of another were spoken in front of me?
Oh what the heck...
It's definitely good to have my life right. But if I lose compassion and the ability to understand what it's like in another's shoes and the sort of perspective another might have in their struggles, I'd rather be in struggles myself so that I don't become self-righteous.
At least in my struggles, I would totally understand, and will definitely learn to understand.
It's like: The best pal who can help a drug addict to break free is another drug addict who has overcome the addiction.
I'd rather be in struggles than be like you... Everyone has issues. Admit it.
Not WHAT but HOW.
I always tell others that it is what you go through that will make you.
But today, I change my stand. Whether what one goes through will make or break one depends on HOW one goes through it.
I testify that there had been times when I dealt with issues in my life with a positive attitude, keeping my eyes on the God who reigns forever and evermore; and there had been times when I dealt with issues in my life with much hopelessness, negativity, choosing to be swayed by whatever others tell me and with a wrong attitude.
In the former, I come out of my struggles victorious. Looking back, I can only see that those issues I had to face were platforms that bring me to another level. I grew due to them.
In the latter, I come out of my struggles being even more weighed down by the yoke those issues have formed over my shoulders. They remained issues not dealt with. I get stuck due to them.
I have to say that without God's help and without the truths in His Word, I would probably be facing my issues with the latter outlook. Every problem will seem like a curse. But because of Him, I am glad that every issue is a door to growth and an opportunity to bring Him glory.
With Him, truly all things work for my good, whether they are good things, or seemingly bad things (Rom 8:28). Seriously, with a God to whom I am EVERYTHING, how can things be for my destruction?
Thank God I found Him, and have Him :) God bless y'all.
But today, I change my stand. Whether what one goes through will make or break one depends on HOW one goes through it.
I testify that there had been times when I dealt with issues in my life with a positive attitude, keeping my eyes on the God who reigns forever and evermore; and there had been times when I dealt with issues in my life with much hopelessness, negativity, choosing to be swayed by whatever others tell me and with a wrong attitude.
In the former, I come out of my struggles victorious. Looking back, I can only see that those issues I had to face were platforms that bring me to another level. I grew due to them.
In the latter, I come out of my struggles being even more weighed down by the yoke those issues have formed over my shoulders. They remained issues not dealt with. I get stuck due to them.
I have to say that without God's help and without the truths in His Word, I would probably be facing my issues with the latter outlook. Every problem will seem like a curse. But because of Him, I am glad that every issue is a door to growth and an opportunity to bring Him glory.
With Him, truly all things work for my good, whether they are good things, or seemingly bad things (Rom 8:28). Seriously, with a God to whom I am EVERYTHING, how can things be for my destruction?
Thank God I found Him, and have Him :) God bless y'all.
17.8.09
Small Matters.
Why would writers of both the Old and New Testaments make it a point to write about how God cares about the tiny things in life that we think are small and not important?
Lets take a peek at just one example from each Testament:
Exodus 25 - 28
Just look at how detailed God wanted the glorious Tabernacle (and everything that has got to do with it) to be. When I first read this book, I was astonished at so many small things which God commanded the Israelites to do. Was all that really necessary?
Matthew 10:30, Luke 12:7
The very hairs on my head are numbered!
Seriously, as long as there are hairs on my head, I don't really care what's the number...though the thickness does :P
We live our lives going through the ups and downs, focusing mostly on the big-important matters because they are simply big and 'important'. Some of us have actually forgotten about the small matters altogether, and dismissed them as unnecessary, and need no attention at all.
However, things which are small don't mean that they are not important. Just like how a stranger smiled at me this morning while I was walking along the corridor at the court complex, and that smile maybe small, but it made a difference! Things like saying thank you to anyone who helped in anyway at all, sharing an umbrella with someone who's stuck in the rain and helping someone pick up books that fell to the ground are small, but they do matter.
I became so disgruntled after giving someone a lift home last night because that person didn't ask me how I was doing and didn't say thank you when getting off my car, simply slammed the door and left. It was a very very silent drive too (minus the conversations I made to know how that person's life is lately). Although I didn't express how I felt, I had to stop and think, "Why did I react that way? It's really small...but it affected me so much."...I was glad that now I know how it's like to be a chauffeur.
Last week, I got scolding from two strangers, on two different days, at two different locations, for really small reasons (one of it wasn't even my fault). I had to get to somewhere isolated and cool down so that I didn't burst out in anger in front of them. Honestly, they are really small matters, but they affected me at a larger scale than the relative 'size' I gave them.
Well, the truth is: Small matters don't make them don't-matter's.
Now I know why God wants us to cast all our cares, whether big or small, unto Him, not just because He wants to take care of all our needs and help us through our concerns, but also because He knows that small things DO matter to our lives.
Just as He is a person who likes details and how small things matter to Him, we being created in His image, are the same. Without these small matters, sooner or later we'll lose the joy in living within a community, and lose our 'lives' because we have become mere robotic creatures that do only those things that seemingly matter more.
For me, yes big things do matter, but the small things are part and parcel of life, the ones that cling on to my journey in dealing with the big things. Small matters do matter.
God bless! ;)
Lets take a peek at just one example from each Testament:
Exodus 25 - 28
Just look at how detailed God wanted the glorious Tabernacle (and everything that has got to do with it) to be. When I first read this book, I was astonished at so many small things which God commanded the Israelites to do. Was all that really necessary?
Matthew 10:30, Luke 12:7
The very hairs on my head are numbered!
Seriously, as long as there are hairs on my head, I don't really care what's the number...though the thickness does :P
We live our lives going through the ups and downs, focusing mostly on the big-important matters because they are simply big and 'important'. Some of us have actually forgotten about the small matters altogether, and dismissed them as unnecessary, and need no attention at all.
However, things which are small don't mean that they are not important. Just like how a stranger smiled at me this morning while I was walking along the corridor at the court complex, and that smile maybe small, but it made a difference! Things like saying thank you to anyone who helped in anyway at all, sharing an umbrella with someone who's stuck in the rain and helping someone pick up books that fell to the ground are small, but they do matter.
I became so disgruntled after giving someone a lift home last night because that person didn't ask me how I was doing and didn't say thank you when getting off my car, simply slammed the door and left. It was a very very silent drive too (minus the conversations I made to know how that person's life is lately). Although I didn't express how I felt, I had to stop and think, "Why did I react that way? It's really small...but it affected me so much."...I was glad that now I know how it's like to be a chauffeur.
Last week, I got scolding from two strangers, on two different days, at two different locations, for really small reasons (one of it wasn't even my fault). I had to get to somewhere isolated and cool down so that I didn't burst out in anger in front of them. Honestly, they are really small matters, but they affected me at a larger scale than the relative 'size' I gave them.
Well, the truth is: Small matters don't make them don't-matter's.
Now I know why God wants us to cast all our cares, whether big or small, unto Him, not just because He wants to take care of all our needs and help us through our concerns, but also because He knows that small things DO matter to our lives.
Just as He is a person who likes details and how small things matter to Him, we being created in His image, are the same. Without these small matters, sooner or later we'll lose the joy in living within a community, and lose our 'lives' because we have become mere robotic creatures that do only those things that seemingly matter more.
For me, yes big things do matter, but the small things are part and parcel of life, the ones that cling on to my journey in dealing with the big things. Small matters do matter.
God bless! ;)
6.8.09
Some '25' Facts.
Just because I turn 25 today.
1. Thomas Clarkson was 25 when he won the annual Latin essay contest at Cambridge in 1785 on 'slavery' which drove him to be the pioneer behind the movement for abolition of slavery in England.
2. The first man in space, Yurin Gagarin, has in his spaceship a sealed envelope with a single white sheet on which was written the number 25 - the code to activate manual control of the spaceship in the event the automatic systems failed.
3. 25 Minutes, that's my all time favourite Michael Learns To Rock song :D
4. 5 x 5 = 25!
5. You will have to pay RM32 for posting a package that weighs 25 kgs with Pos Laju for local town delivery.
6. Edward Norton acted in a movie called 25th Hour.
7. Indonesia has won 25 Olympic Games medals so far, 6 of them are gold medals, 9 silver and 10 bronze.
8. The population of Saudi Arabia is 25 million.
9. 25 Words Or Less is a board game that I'd like to try ;)
10. The chicken satay at Balik Pulau, Penang costs only 25 cents each!
11. We celebrate Christmas on the 25th day of December every year.
12. Brunei celebrated its 25 years of independence in the year 2009.
Ok....I think I ran out of '25' facts now.
1. Thomas Clarkson was 25 when he won the annual Latin essay contest at Cambridge in 1785 on 'slavery' which drove him to be the pioneer behind the movement for abolition of slavery in England.
2. The first man in space, Yurin Gagarin, has in his spaceship a sealed envelope with a single white sheet on which was written the number 25 - the code to activate manual control of the spaceship in the event the automatic systems failed.
3. 25 Minutes, that's my all time favourite Michael Learns To Rock song :D
4. 5 x 5 = 25!
5. You will have to pay RM32 for posting a package that weighs 25 kgs with Pos Laju for local town delivery.
6. Edward Norton acted in a movie called 25th Hour.
7. Indonesia has won 25 Olympic Games medals so far, 6 of them are gold medals, 9 silver and 10 bronze.
8. The population of Saudi Arabia is 25 million.
9. 25 Words Or Less is a board game that I'd like to try ;)
10. The chicken satay at Balik Pulau, Penang costs only 25 cents each!
11. We celebrate Christmas on the 25th day of December every year.
12. Brunei celebrated its 25 years of independence in the year 2009.
Ok....I think I ran out of '25' facts now.
A Quarter Century On Planet Earth.
Happy birthday to me :)
I am on Earth for 25 years officially. That's about 13,140,000 minutes...
I do enjoy life here, and I thank God for each day because He tells me how much He loves me with every single experience and minute spent on Earth. I praise Him for having the idea of creating me (and executing that idea) so that He can take me on this adventurously beautiful and wonderful journey of being a first-hand witness to all that beauty of His.
It is such an honour and privilege to be born on this very day 25 years ago.
But when I think about what have I done for Him, I am so ashamed to say that I didn't really do much. In comparison to what He has done for humanity, the total sum of all I did is so puny :P
However, I am glad that I am here on Earth not to just do, do, do and work, work work, but to live, live, live.
I am looking forward to many more great adventures with God ;)
I hope you will share the same excitement I feel on your birthday too.
I am on Earth for 25 years officially. That's about 13,140,000 minutes...
I do enjoy life here, and I thank God for each day because He tells me how much He loves me with every single experience and minute spent on Earth. I praise Him for having the idea of creating me (and executing that idea) so that He can take me on this adventurously beautiful and wonderful journey of being a first-hand witness to all that beauty of His.
It is such an honour and privilege to be born on this very day 25 years ago.
But when I think about what have I done for Him, I am so ashamed to say that I didn't really do much. In comparison to what He has done for humanity, the total sum of all I did is so puny :P
However, I am glad that I am here on Earth not to just do, do, do and work, work work, but to live, live, live.
I am looking forward to many more great adventures with God ;)
I hope you will share the same excitement I feel on your birthday too.
2.8.09
How long can I withstand it?
I always knew that there is something bigger than myself.
But why is it so painful to bear?
I looked in the streets and see men & women high on drugs, infected with HIV, identity-less, tormented.
I looked at the next generation of this nation and see kids who are abused, disillusioned, lost, broken.
I looked in the systems adminitering this nation and see corruption, selfishness, unstability, injustice.
I can only keep declaring that He reigns no matter how things look like. But I want to use these hands, feet and voice to make a difference. What can I do?
My fragile heart is too small to contain the burden it carries.
How long can I withstand it before it explodes?
But why is it so painful to bear?
I looked in the streets and see men & women high on drugs, infected with HIV, identity-less, tormented.
I looked at the next generation of this nation and see kids who are abused, disillusioned, lost, broken.
I looked in the systems adminitering this nation and see corruption, selfishness, unstability, injustice.
I can only keep declaring that He reigns no matter how things look like. But I want to use these hands, feet and voice to make a difference. What can I do?
My fragile heart is too small to contain the burden it carries.
How long can I withstand it before it explodes?
30.7.09
When I Think Of You.
Paul wrote to the Ephesians and expressed how thankful he is for the siblings in Christ in Ephesus because of their faith and the love they showed to others.
I've had the time to think of all those who have walked alongside me in my adventurous and wonderful God-journey for the past 4 years. Some were with me longer than others. But I feel like how Paul felt towards the Ephesians - thankful, very very thankful.
No one is perfect and there had been some who sand-papared me and got on my nerves, but it was God's way of shaping me. In the end, it was really for my good.
When I looked back and witnessed the change that took place in the lives of all these people, I can only do one thing, borrowing the words of Paul "I do not cease to give thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers...".
So if you are wondering what is in my mind when I think of you, I am thankful for you :)
God bless ya.
I've had the time to think of all those who have walked alongside me in my adventurous and wonderful God-journey for the past 4 years. Some were with me longer than others. But I feel like how Paul felt towards the Ephesians - thankful, very very thankful.
No one is perfect and there had been some who sand-papared me and got on my nerves, but it was God's way of shaping me. In the end, it was really for my good.
When I looked back and witnessed the change that took place in the lives of all these people, I can only do one thing, borrowing the words of Paul "I do not cease to give thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers...".
So if you are wondering what is in my mind when I think of you, I am thankful for you :)
God bless ya.
26.7.09
Toll-tertainment.
Allison and Justin have gone back to the UK for 3 weeks. After dropping them at KLIA, the drive home was hard...I was so sleepy zzzzzzz
The loud music or karaoke didn't help. I sped, in order that I can reach home faster and not be on the road any second longer because being on the road in that state is hazardous.
When my own efforts couldn't take away my sleepiness anymore, I prayed to God and said "God, please help me stay awake until I reach home, do anything...whatever."
Then, I reached the toll and this toll attendant, a Malay guy, was singing "I like to move it move it, I like to move it move it, I like to move it move it... (the Madagascar song)" out loud, totally oblivious to the fact that I was staring at him while he bobbed up and down to the song and handed me my toll ticket.
I laughed all the way home :D
God is soooooo funny!
The loud music or karaoke didn't help. I sped, in order that I can reach home faster and not be on the road any second longer because being on the road in that state is hazardous.
When my own efforts couldn't take away my sleepiness anymore, I prayed to God and said "God, please help me stay awake until I reach home, do anything...whatever."
Then, I reached the toll and this toll attendant, a Malay guy, was singing "I like to move it move it, I like to move it move it, I like to move it move it... (the Madagascar song)" out loud, totally oblivious to the fact that I was staring at him while he bobbed up and down to the song and handed me my toll ticket.
I laughed all the way home :D
God is soooooo funny!
24.7.09
Not Too Attached.
Friends - some won't always be there, but some will be there for us through everything...or will they really?
I'm turning a quarter century old soon. In my 25-minus-2-weeks years of life here on planet Earth and all the experience I've had with people in my world who I dubbed as 'friend', the conclusion I can make is that no one will really be there for their friends through everything, except for one Person - Jesus. (Thank God at least there's 1!)
The good ones left deeper footprints on my heart while many just touched and went. The ones that I hung out most with (and trusted most) in the past 3 years are either now overseas and getting married OR getting married soon and leaving Malaysia OR flew to Melbourne to study for 6 months (without a doubt will be 6 months plus a couple more) OR occupied with an expanding business and a family to take care of...even the potential ones have potential opportunities coming that will change the status quo established in our friendship, if any at all.
Maybe I feel the change more than those who actually live with their family. Being away from home since 11 has made me value friendships so much more. It was my friends who really went through more than half my life with me. It sucks to know and acknowledge that they too have their own lives to live and they won't be there for everything forever.
As I thought about this and expressed my sentiments to God, He reminded me of one very important truth about this - my life here on Earth is only temporary and there is nothing I can take with me when I return to Him, thus there is no point or eternal benefit to get too attached to anything in the world, that includes friends whom He graciously blessed me with. Friends are to be appreciated, not worshiped...except for Jesus of course.
That'll work :) I think...
I'm turning a quarter century old soon. In my 25-minus-2-weeks years of life here on planet Earth and all the experience I've had with people in my world who I dubbed as 'friend', the conclusion I can make is that no one will really be there for their friends through everything, except for one Person - Jesus. (Thank God at least there's 1!)
The good ones left deeper footprints on my heart while many just touched and went. The ones that I hung out most with (and trusted most) in the past 3 years are either now overseas and getting married OR getting married soon and leaving Malaysia OR flew to Melbourne to study for 6 months (without a doubt will be 6 months plus a couple more) OR occupied with an expanding business and a family to take care of...even the potential ones have potential opportunities coming that will change the status quo established in our friendship, if any at all.
Maybe I feel the change more than those who actually live with their family. Being away from home since 11 has made me value friendships so much more. It was my friends who really went through more than half my life with me. It sucks to know and acknowledge that they too have their own lives to live and they won't be there for everything forever.
As I thought about this and expressed my sentiments to God, He reminded me of one very important truth about this - my life here on Earth is only temporary and there is nothing I can take with me when I return to Him, thus there is no point or eternal benefit to get too attached to anything in the world, that includes friends whom He graciously blessed me with. Friends are to be appreciated, not worshiped...except for Jesus of course.
That'll work :) I think...
21.7.09
Dirty Oil.
Jealousy and envy can be so strong that they can cause one to hate.
They are dirty oil in the engine. A car can run on dirty oil, but it is a matter of time before the engine dies because dirty oil damages the engine gradually.
The forces emanating from jealousy and envy can be strong, but they are evil, and damaging to the heart. But praise God! His love, like Lily Potter's love for her son, is stronger than all forces of evil combined. He is more powerful than the power of jealousy and envy.
No matter how much clean oil is poured into a container of dirty oil, the oil won't become clean. The end result of mixing both will still be dirty oil.
But the truth is this - Jesus' blood washed all that dirt away and cleansed our hearts. It's purity is strong enough to transform dirty oil into clean, good oil, all because He shed His blood to set us free. Free from hatred, free from sin, free from the power of jealousy and envy that slowly eat us up inside. The voices we hear in our heads telling us that we are bound in chains of jealousy and envy are just lies to make us fall when in reality, there wasn't even a bump on the road to trip us.
By His blood, our hearts have been made clean.
He died on the cross to show us that He has conquered them all for us. And because He lives in us, we too can conquer jealousy and envy in us. Their power has been broken. We have indeed been set free.
No more dirty oil... Yipee!
They are dirty oil in the engine. A car can run on dirty oil, but it is a matter of time before the engine dies because dirty oil damages the engine gradually.
The forces emanating from jealousy and envy can be strong, but they are evil, and damaging to the heart. But praise God! His love, like Lily Potter's love for her son, is stronger than all forces of evil combined. He is more powerful than the power of jealousy and envy.
No matter how much clean oil is poured into a container of dirty oil, the oil won't become clean. The end result of mixing both will still be dirty oil.
But the truth is this - Jesus' blood washed all that dirt away and cleansed our hearts. It's purity is strong enough to transform dirty oil into clean, good oil, all because He shed His blood to set us free. Free from hatred, free from sin, free from the power of jealousy and envy that slowly eat us up inside. The voices we hear in our heads telling us that we are bound in chains of jealousy and envy are just lies to make us fall when in reality, there wasn't even a bump on the road to trip us.
By His blood, our hearts have been made clean.
He died on the cross to show us that He has conquered them all for us. And because He lives in us, we too can conquer jealousy and envy in us. Their power has been broken. We have indeed been set free.
No more dirty oil... Yipee!
10.7.09
Funny Evening.
Just found out from a friend who came from Bangkok, Thailand that five in Siamese is 'Hah'.
So when they SMS or chat on MSN, they type this to express 'laughing' - 5555.
Hahahaha!
On my way out of the Sunway Pyramid car park, I saw this car parked somewhere with the number plate 'DAL'. Made me think of roti canai dal :P
I laughed a lot today.
Awesome! Haven't been able to laugh like that for a few months already :)
So when they SMS or chat on MSN, they type this to express 'laughing' - 5555.
Hahahaha!
On my way out of the Sunway Pyramid car park, I saw this car parked somewhere with the number plate 'DAL'. Made me think of roti canai dal :P
I laughed a lot today.
Awesome! Haven't been able to laugh like that for a few months already :)
Funny Morning.
God is so funny!
While I was driving to Shah Alam this morning on this straight road, I was able to observe the cars on the other side of the road because the traffic was slow.
You should do it sometime, it is amusing!
The first driver I saw was this lady with long curly hair. She had a really serious face, like she was angry at someone.
The car after hers was this man with another passenger in front. He had this wide grin on his face. Seemed like he was enjoying the chat with the other person in the car.
The third car was a red and white taxi. The taxi driver had his shoulders hunched over the wheel, he was really focused on the road, like trying not to hit the car in front.
The fourth car was a four wheel drive, an uncle was driving it. This was the champion. He was digging his nose furiously.
4 cars back to back, all had different facial expressions. I stopped at the fourth car and just laughed out loud :D
And then when I reached the Shah Alam court, there was a notice outside one of the courts with the e-mail address for correspondences. It was : littlesolicitor_(some numbers I forgot)@yahoo.com.
LOL
God is sooooo funny!
While I was driving to Shah Alam this morning on this straight road, I was able to observe the cars on the other side of the road because the traffic was slow.
You should do it sometime, it is amusing!
The first driver I saw was this lady with long curly hair. She had a really serious face, like she was angry at someone.
The car after hers was this man with another passenger in front. He had this wide grin on his face. Seemed like he was enjoying the chat with the other person in the car.
The third car was a red and white taxi. The taxi driver had his shoulders hunched over the wheel, he was really focused on the road, like trying not to hit the car in front.
The fourth car was a four wheel drive, an uncle was driving it. This was the champion. He was digging his nose furiously.
4 cars back to back, all had different facial expressions. I stopped at the fourth car and just laughed out loud :D
And then when I reached the Shah Alam court, there was a notice outside one of the courts with the e-mail address for correspondences. It was : littlesolicitor_(some numbers I forgot)@yahoo.com.
LOL
God is sooooo funny!
9.7.09
No is not the End.
Mark 5:18-20
The demon-possessed man who got healed by Jesus wanted to follow him in the rest of his journey away from Gerasenes. After having experienced Jesus' mercy and grace, who wouldn't want to go with him?
But Jesus didn't allow the man to go with him and the rest of his disciples. Instead he asked the man to tell of his goodness back at home.
The man didn't say a word or complain about not being able to follow him and go with the rest. He went home and did exactly as he was told - and everyone marveled.
If I was that man, I would have complained and made a big fuss about not being allowed to go with Jesus and the rest of his gang! That man's submissive behaviour amazes me! There was certainly a better plan for him back home and greater things for him there. He didn't assume that he knew what's best for himself. I guess he knew that Jesus' words can be held on to.
When Jesus said 'No' to him, it didn't mean that he's not good enough to follow the rest, but rather it simple means his calling is not that! It also didn't mean that it is the end of the journey for that man. There was definitely more for him, just not with the rest, but elsewhere.
When God says 'No' to something, it is not THE END.
;) God loves you soooooo much. You think He would want to sabotage your life? Nuh!
The demon-possessed man who got healed by Jesus wanted to follow him in the rest of his journey away from Gerasenes. After having experienced Jesus' mercy and grace, who wouldn't want to go with him?
But Jesus didn't allow the man to go with him and the rest of his disciples. Instead he asked the man to tell of his goodness back at home.
The man didn't say a word or complain about not being able to follow him and go with the rest. He went home and did exactly as he was told - and everyone marveled.
If I was that man, I would have complained and made a big fuss about not being allowed to go with Jesus and the rest of his gang! That man's submissive behaviour amazes me! There was certainly a better plan for him back home and greater things for him there. He didn't assume that he knew what's best for himself. I guess he knew that Jesus' words can be held on to.
When Jesus said 'No' to him, it didn't mean that he's not good enough to follow the rest, but rather it simple means his calling is not that! It also didn't mean that it is the end of the journey for that man. There was definitely more for him, just not with the rest, but elsewhere.
When God says 'No' to something, it is not THE END.
;) God loves you soooooo much. You think He would want to sabotage your life? Nuh!
4.7.09
My 10 MJ Facts.
1. All time favourite video clip: Black or White.
2. All time favourite song: The Girl Is Mine.
3. How famous is he in my world? - Even my 70 over year old grandma knows him.
4. One person I know who looks like him: (just a bit) Noel Chelliah :D
5. Favourite Jackson sibling: Janet Jackson.
6. Best dance routine: It's a tie lah....Thriller and Beat it!.
7. Most outrageous hairstyle: http://www.rockmusicart.com/images/product_images/Michael_Jackson.jpg
8. Best outfit: http://evelkneivel.com/thriller.gif
9. Favourite dance move: The 'lean'. It's amazing how he did it!
10. I don't think he did all that bad stuff people said he did.
-The End-
2. All time favourite song: The Girl Is Mine.
3. How famous is he in my world? - Even my 70 over year old grandma knows him.
4. One person I know who looks like him: (just a bit) Noel Chelliah :D
5. Favourite Jackson sibling: Janet Jackson.
6. Best dance routine: It's a tie lah....Thriller and Beat it!.
7. Most outrageous hairstyle: http://www.rockmusicart.com/images/product_images/Michael_Jackson.jpg
8. Best outfit: http://evelkneivel.com/thriller.gif
9. Favourite dance move: The 'lean'. It's amazing how he did it!
10. I don't think he did all that bad stuff people said he did.
-The End-
25.6.09
Blurness Embarasses.
Two days ago, I went to work in the blurrest mode ever in this year. My body was awake, but my mind was definitely still in deep slumber. I was going to work in trance, haha.
And so I walked up to this little truck at Taipan parked near my office that sells nasi lemak. I wanted to buy breakfast there, as I do most of the mornings.
I had NASI LEMAK in my mind. But before I could channel that thought to my mouth, it blurted, "Bang, satu NASI GORENG."
The nasi lemak seller laughed at me, and guess what? There was another customer there, and he laughed at me too. To add to the embarassment, I tried to cover up, "Kamu goreng nasi tu sekarang lah..."
They both laughed even harder. Oh, how embarassing!
And so I walked up to this little truck at Taipan parked near my office that sells nasi lemak. I wanted to buy breakfast there, as I do most of the mornings.
I had NASI LEMAK in my mind. But before I could channel that thought to my mouth, it blurted, "Bang, satu NASI GORENG."
The nasi lemak seller laughed at me, and guess what? There was another customer there, and he laughed at me too. To add to the embarassment, I tried to cover up, "Kamu goreng nasi tu sekarang lah..."
They both laughed even harder. Oh, how embarassing!
22.6.09
When I Met You.
Hey You,
When I met You, my life before that point has become negligible.
It no longer matter.
It was as though life had only really began at the moment I found You
...or rather You found me.
Truly I say to You: my life is found in You.
Te Amo.
When I met You, my life before that point has become negligible.
It no longer matter.
It was as though life had only really began at the moment I found You
...or rather You found me.
Truly I say to You: my life is found in You.
Te Amo.
10.6.09
Up For the Challenge?
Someone very dear to me recently asked me a good question: Have you ever challenged God?
"Well, like you tell God if He make this happen, then you will do something."
When I just began to know Jesus, I always challenge him that way. For example, I remember vividly saying to him that if he helped me get back this deposit I paid to my college, I will give it all in offering on Sunday. There are many more challenges I gave him, and some really put me to shame :P
My first ever challenge to God was this - that He show me that He is real, because I really wanted to know if He is real. Guess what? He did show up, and so did the many times I challenged Him. But the question is, did I keep my part of the bargain all the time? You can guess the answer to that...
I don't know when was the point in time that I stopped challenging God already. It felt like ages since I last did that. The Bible said to not put God to test (Deuteronomy 6:16). But I stopped challenging God not because of that verse, rather, I stopped because as I grew closer to God and got to know Him so much more.
I was such an idiot to challenge God :P I am just a human being that's full with flaws and incapable in so many ways. To challenge a God who is All-Mighty, All-Powerful, All-Knowing and who created this universe is really an idiotic attempt that is doomed to failure without exception. HAHA.
There is really no point in challenging God. Nothing is too difficult for Him (Genesis 18:14), and nothing is impossible for Him (Luke 1:37). I've learnt that in challenging God, I am just using it as an excuse to either not believe in Him or not obeying Him, putting the blame on Him instead of trusting in Him and His goodness & faithfulness. In other words, I am masking my lack of faith with seemingly reasonable request for God to show up first, when in fact He is already there.
Throughout my months of walking with God, I picked up that by challenging God, I am actually putting myself to a test that will not do me any good in the long run. With each challenge I put to God, I am showing to Him that I am not a person who can be trusted with the bigger things that God has in store for me because I don't trust Him.
It's like a father who is and will be giving the son the best things already simply because the father loves the son. But one day the son came to him and said "Dad, why don't you help my business prosper, and then I will acknowledge that you love me." Can you imagine the hurt to the father's heart when he hears that?
The truth that doesn't change is that God loves us and God's nature is to bless and to give without holding back. Only He knows what is best for us, and when is the right timing to give us bigger things as only He will know when we are ready and responsible enough to handle the bigger things that He will eventually give to us. But when we challenge Him, we are belittle-ing how big He is and how powerful He is, pulling Him down to our wordly standards instead of lifting our expectations to His level.
Shortly said, God is definitely and is always up for the challenge. But are we up for the challenge?
"Well, like you tell God if He make this happen, then you will do something."
When I just began to know Jesus, I always challenge him that way. For example, I remember vividly saying to him that if he helped me get back this deposit I paid to my college, I will give it all in offering on Sunday. There are many more challenges I gave him, and some really put me to shame :P
My first ever challenge to God was this - that He show me that He is real, because I really wanted to know if He is real. Guess what? He did show up, and so did the many times I challenged Him. But the question is, did I keep my part of the bargain all the time? You can guess the answer to that...
I don't know when was the point in time that I stopped challenging God already. It felt like ages since I last did that. The Bible said to not put God to test (Deuteronomy 6:16). But I stopped challenging God not because of that verse, rather, I stopped because as I grew closer to God and got to know Him so much more.
I was such an idiot to challenge God :P I am just a human being that's full with flaws and incapable in so many ways. To challenge a God who is All-Mighty, All-Powerful, All-Knowing and who created this universe is really an idiotic attempt that is doomed to failure without exception. HAHA.
There is really no point in challenging God. Nothing is too difficult for Him (Genesis 18:14), and nothing is impossible for Him (Luke 1:37). I've learnt that in challenging God, I am just using it as an excuse to either not believe in Him or not obeying Him, putting the blame on Him instead of trusting in Him and His goodness & faithfulness. In other words, I am masking my lack of faith with seemingly reasonable request for God to show up first, when in fact He is already there.
Throughout my months of walking with God, I picked up that by challenging God, I am actually putting myself to a test that will not do me any good in the long run. With each challenge I put to God, I am showing to Him that I am not a person who can be trusted with the bigger things that God has in store for me because I don't trust Him.
It's like a father who is and will be giving the son the best things already simply because the father loves the son. But one day the son came to him and said "Dad, why don't you help my business prosper, and then I will acknowledge that you love me." Can you imagine the hurt to the father's heart when he hears that?
The truth that doesn't change is that God loves us and God's nature is to bless and to give without holding back. Only He knows what is best for us, and when is the right timing to give us bigger things as only He will know when we are ready and responsible enough to handle the bigger things that He will eventually give to us. But when we challenge Him, we are belittle-ing how big He is and how powerful He is, pulling Him down to our wordly standards instead of lifting our expectations to His level.
Shortly said, God is definitely and is always up for the challenge. But are we up for the challenge?
8.6.09
You have a need?
The one constant thing in life is 'change'. Another constant is 'need'.
When I was younger, I thought having a need is a bad thing, because I thought it means I wasn't capable enough to make sure that that need is covered. Simply said, I didn't do enough, that's why there is a need.
But as I age, I have learnt to live with having needs. It is perfectly normal, and human, to have needs. In fact, it is when one stop needing for something that one stops life altogether.
But unmet needs are really a pain in the a** sometimes. So having needs are normal, but having unmet needs are frustrating. What am I suppose to do with them then?
I took this to the Lord, check out what He said:
All things happen for the good of those who love Me. And it is My will that all will know me, and taste how good I am and how much I love them. I allow needs in your life not to torture you or to purposely make you lack in something. Needs are there so that I can come through for you on them, and then you will see how much I love you. I put a need in your life, but it is also I who will provide for it. Really, I just want you to know how much I love you :)
Everyday, He wants to tell me how much He loves me in everything that happens...even in my needs.
You have a need? Great!! Cos you're about to receive His grace, love, mercy. Don't fret, aight?
When I was younger, I thought having a need is a bad thing, because I thought it means I wasn't capable enough to make sure that that need is covered. Simply said, I didn't do enough, that's why there is a need.
But as I age, I have learnt to live with having needs. It is perfectly normal, and human, to have needs. In fact, it is when one stop needing for something that one stops life altogether.
But unmet needs are really a pain in the a** sometimes. So having needs are normal, but having unmet needs are frustrating. What am I suppose to do with them then?
I took this to the Lord, check out what He said:
All things happen for the good of those who love Me. And it is My will that all will know me, and taste how good I am and how much I love them. I allow needs in your life not to torture you or to purposely make you lack in something. Needs are there so that I can come through for you on them, and then you will see how much I love you. I put a need in your life, but it is also I who will provide for it. Really, I just want you to know how much I love you :)
Everyday, He wants to tell me how much He loves me in everything that happens...even in my needs.
You have a need? Great!! Cos you're about to receive His grace, love, mercy. Don't fret, aight?
On Purpose
Genesis 2:18 - The Lord God said: "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him."
When God created woman, Adam was too busy running around bushes and naming animals. He couldn't be bothered :P
Woman was and still is God's idea. It was God who wanted to create woman so that Adam, or rather the male-man, can have someone to share the love that God gave to him.
God created woman on only one basis - love.
And it wasn't on accident, nor for fun.
God created woman on purpose. She was His idea.
How awesome is that? ;) I am His idea and created on purpose. Whoa!
When God created woman, Adam was too busy running around bushes and naming animals. He couldn't be bothered :P
Woman was and still is God's idea. It was God who wanted to create woman so that Adam, or rather the male-man, can have someone to share the love that God gave to him.
God created woman on only one basis - love.
And it wasn't on accident, nor for fun.
God created woman on purpose. She was His idea.
How awesome is that? ;) I am His idea and created on purpose. Whoa!
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