Last Saturday was one of my craziest Saturdays.
I don't remember when was the last time I woke up at 5am in the morning. But I did last Saturday. The reason? Well, I signed up for RunNat. Over a thousand Christians all over Malaysia has purposed to Run For The Nation on that fateful Saturday morning. So I ran only 5km, together with 3 other new friends I made that morning. But the coolest part? We didn't just run. We ran AND prayed at the same time.
I really like the RunNat concept. So from 5am in the morning until 12pm there were people praying for Malaysia. It didn't happen just in KL. It happened ALL OVER Malaysia. So within the span of 7 hours divided into 8 slots each covered by a group of 3 to 5 running for 5km, we covered the nation in prayer while we run over 1000km altogether. How cool is that?!
My group's slot was at 6.20am until 7am. I got assigned by the system to Kepong-Sg Buloh!! I had no idea how my name got loose from the KingdomCity gang which was running in Putrajaya. But I believed I got assigned there for a reason lah. It was raining when we ran. Our 'baton', which was a 7-page prayer card that will be passed from group to group, was already wet and koyak when it reached us. Haha! But we prayed fervently and loudly nevertheless, attracting many onlookers.
It was a cool morning!!
Then I rushed home to fetch my mom to Wisma Pandu Puteri for her meeting, grabbing some breakfast at a mamak shop with her and enjoying the cloudy morning together.
Then I rushed off to Fireflies, which was awesome!!! A kid in my class brought chocolate cake for me. How sweet!!
Then coaching...and then Fireflies teachers meeting, which was by God's grace very very productive. We came up with so many great ideas on how to improve Fireflies and how we can impact the lives of people there. I thought some ideas were pretty cool.
And then pick mom up, go to Klang for sea food with my aunt and family...When I was in Klang, I didn't think about the one person I thought I would think of. Breakthrough!! Yeah!! Thank You God...but I thought of Cherinnee, and how she said the cow by the side of the road was a big dog. Hahaha!! I will never forget that every time I go to Botanic. Never :)
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Disney Sunset
19.5.10
It's been a while.
Felt like ages since I last blogged.
So much has happened, where should I start?
Well, I am getting the hang of legal practice, and I have started part-time coaching gymnastics. Practice is getting more difficult, even more so with the new systems in court that is not practice-friendly at all. One thing good though is that now courts dispose off cases faster, though sometimes at the cost of justice. And each time when a client comes to office to meet me for discussion of an issue they have, whether it's divorce, or construction problem, debts issue, I always wish that they knew Jesus too. Because if they did, everything would be different....(and a train of thoughts ensued, which I will not dwell in here). Coaching is FUN! Really plan to do it full time in near future. The girls in my classes are cool! They really test my patience, especially when one of them poop-ed in my class. I am not joking. It was a nightmare! And my very 1st experience.
Fireflies is coming to an end for the 1st semester. New kids will be joining us soon. Recently, I got two Teacher's Day cards from the Fireflies kids. They are so lovely. And I like the fact that I am used by God to bring hope to these kids. Love them so much. I do hope I have made some good impact in these kids' lives that will be carried on into their future. I have faith that God will nurture those seeds.
Church is one word -AWESOME! It's getting better each week, no kidding. God is so faithful and good. He never failed to show up and touch lives, including my own. There was a time I had to deal with disappointment, and that wasn't the sweetest season in my life. But I really thank God for being there for me, never in a single mili-second left my side. KingdomUni and KingdomKids are launching, or launched...hahaha, I am not even sure. But, I am sure that they are awesome!!! The kids rooms were recently painted, and man, they make me want to be a kid again so badly! And the youths, well, never more vibrant than this! We are seeing more and more new faces each week in church. It is very encouraging to see this amazing family grow.
I am seriously considering starting a crafts business, or if not teach kids to do crafts. There is always something about arts and crafts...I guess it's the way it can bring out the best creativity in a kid and promote thinking outside the box. I love the wild imagination in a kid's mind. It always dazzle me. Really.
And, finally, I am seeing someone. And I like Channing Tatum. Haha.
Adios for now. Zoo-eey-Mama!
So much has happened, where should I start?
Well, I am getting the hang of legal practice, and I have started part-time coaching gymnastics. Practice is getting more difficult, even more so with the new systems in court that is not practice-friendly at all. One thing good though is that now courts dispose off cases faster, though sometimes at the cost of justice. And each time when a client comes to office to meet me for discussion of an issue they have, whether it's divorce, or construction problem, debts issue, I always wish that they knew Jesus too. Because if they did, everything would be different....(and a train of thoughts ensued, which I will not dwell in here). Coaching is FUN! Really plan to do it full time in near future. The girls in my classes are cool! They really test my patience, especially when one of them poop-ed in my class. I am not joking. It was a nightmare! And my very 1st experience.
Fireflies is coming to an end for the 1st semester. New kids will be joining us soon. Recently, I got two Teacher's Day cards from the Fireflies kids. They are so lovely. And I like the fact that I am used by God to bring hope to these kids. Love them so much. I do hope I have made some good impact in these kids' lives that will be carried on into their future. I have faith that God will nurture those seeds.
Church is one word -AWESOME! It's getting better each week, no kidding. God is so faithful and good. He never failed to show up and touch lives, including my own. There was a time I had to deal with disappointment, and that wasn't the sweetest season in my life. But I really thank God for being there for me, never in a single mili-second left my side. KingdomUni and KingdomKids are launching, or launched...hahaha, I am not even sure. But, I am sure that they are awesome!!! The kids rooms were recently painted, and man, they make me want to be a kid again so badly! And the youths, well, never more vibrant than this! We are seeing more and more new faces each week in church. It is very encouraging to see this amazing family grow.
I am seriously considering starting a crafts business, or if not teach kids to do crafts. There is always something about arts and crafts...I guess it's the way it can bring out the best creativity in a kid and promote thinking outside the box. I love the wild imagination in a kid's mind. It always dazzle me. Really.
And, finally, I am seeing someone. And I like Channing Tatum. Haha.
Adios for now. Zoo-eey-Mama!
2.4.10
Zooming Out.
Some counters in banks, courts or companies separate the officers and the customers with glass on which you can see rows of tiny holes.
I never really knew why the holes are there. Maybe it's for breathing, maybe it's for the person on the other side of the glass to hear better. I don't know.
But when I looked closer at the glass at the court payment counter this morning, it was obvious the cleaners only cleaned the glass but forgot about the tiny holes. The holes were dusty, and dirty. The first thought that came to my mind was 'Man, this glass is dirty!'.
But is it really?
I found myself zooming in on the tiny holes only, and was in total ignorance of the big piece of clean glass that was right in front of my face. All I saw was the dirty tiny holes, not the clean wide glass. The tiny holes were dirty, but not the glass.
I wondered it I have looked at people that way too. As human beings, we tend to zoom in on the small imperfections in others but often when we do that, we forgot to see the bigger picture. We point our fingers at others for their once, twice in a lifetime mistakes or small abnormalities, and forgot all about the truth that life of these people is bigger than that and there is still a long journey ahead for them. We zoomed in on their small imperfections and made them the only image in our viewing screen.
We all, myself included, should zoom out more on people. The small imperfections are only a small part of who a person really is. If we don't zoom out, then we will be missing out on knowing the person as that person really is.
...plus...we don't see the blackheads anymore. Hahaha!
I never really knew why the holes are there. Maybe it's for breathing, maybe it's for the person on the other side of the glass to hear better. I don't know.
But when I looked closer at the glass at the court payment counter this morning, it was obvious the cleaners only cleaned the glass but forgot about the tiny holes. The holes were dusty, and dirty. The first thought that came to my mind was 'Man, this glass is dirty!'.
But is it really?
I found myself zooming in on the tiny holes only, and was in total ignorance of the big piece of clean glass that was right in front of my face. All I saw was the dirty tiny holes, not the clean wide glass. The tiny holes were dirty, but not the glass.
I wondered it I have looked at people that way too. As human beings, we tend to zoom in on the small imperfections in others but often when we do that, we forgot to see the bigger picture. We point our fingers at others for their once, twice in a lifetime mistakes or small abnormalities, and forgot all about the truth that life of these people is bigger than that and there is still a long journey ahead for them. We zoomed in on their small imperfections and made them the only image in our viewing screen.
We all, myself included, should zoom out more on people. The small imperfections are only a small part of who a person really is. If we don't zoom out, then we will be missing out on knowing the person as that person really is.
...plus...we don't see the blackheads anymore. Hahaha!
25.3.10
Pregnancy Contrast.
I received news from a close sister in church that she just got pregnant!
I was exhilarated! So much joy flowed out of me because of that news, and I am looking forward to becoming an aunt to their kid. That's great news!
Well, they were the second newly-wed couple in church after a year or 2 to conceive. This is great news!! :D Very very exciting too.
But when I think of other friends of mine who got pregnant, I don't feel that same kinda joy when I found out that they are pregnant. In fact, it is mostly feeling of pity and sorry... because these 2nd group of pregnancies are those that became the reason for their marriage.
Shot-gun weddings are just not the same as real proper weddings.
And bearing a child on purpose is just not the same as taking responsibility of the consequece of two persons' uncontrolled lust.
It's not like I am not happy about them getting married because of a child that's coming. At least the man is taking responsibility as the father and husband. But the joy is never quite complete in these instances. And I always find myself praying quietly and crossing my fingers that their marriage will turn out good.
The contrast in the feelings for both groups of pregnancies confounds me. Either way, bringing a new life into the world, being the chosen two to bring into this world a person created by God is something to be celebrated.
But if I am able to choose (praise Jesus that we are all able to!), I would rather have the complete-pure joy of bringing into this world a new life on purpose, and not with a duty on my shoulders as a result of an act of lust. After all, life is about choices, ain't it?
I hope I, and you can choose right.
I was exhilarated! So much joy flowed out of me because of that news, and I am looking forward to becoming an aunt to their kid. That's great news!
Well, they were the second newly-wed couple in church after a year or 2 to conceive. This is great news!! :D Very very exciting too.
But when I think of other friends of mine who got pregnant, I don't feel that same kinda joy when I found out that they are pregnant. In fact, it is mostly feeling of pity and sorry... because these 2nd group of pregnancies are those that became the reason for their marriage.
Shot-gun weddings are just not the same as real proper weddings.
And bearing a child on purpose is just not the same as taking responsibility of the consequece of two persons' uncontrolled lust.
It's not like I am not happy about them getting married because of a child that's coming. At least the man is taking responsibility as the father and husband. But the joy is never quite complete in these instances. And I always find myself praying quietly and crossing my fingers that their marriage will turn out good.
The contrast in the feelings for both groups of pregnancies confounds me. Either way, bringing a new life into the world, being the chosen two to bring into this world a person created by God is something to be celebrated.
But if I am able to choose (praise Jesus that we are all able to!), I would rather have the complete-pure joy of bringing into this world a new life on purpose, and not with a duty on my shoulders as a result of an act of lust. After all, life is about choices, ain't it?
I hope I, and you can choose right.
14.2.10
Revealing 1 MALAYsia.
When the Prime Minister of Malaysia launched the 1 Malaysia campaign after he was appointed, it was so promising and gave many, especially the minority races in Malaysia, hopes that every individual in this multi-racial and multi-ethnic nation will for once be treated fairly, if not equally.
We all thought (or at least I thought): YES! Finally the government decides to remove the Malay/Chinese/Indian/Bumiputra/Non-Bumiputra label given to each person long time ago, and sincerely see each person as 'Malaysian'.
But unfortunately, we all thought wrong.
On the surface, 1 Malaysia is so appealing, giving many the idea that each of us is the same 'Malaysian'. However, the recent turn of events revealed the propaganda hidden behind this appealing-promising campaign. It's back to square one, again.
The idea they had for 1 Malaysia is this: "1 Malaysia bukan kesaksamaan, tetapi keadilan" (1 Malaysia is not about equality, but about fairness.) Further elaboration about what "fairness" means to them would be: The majority wins. So much for democracy.
So, if the majority says that:
- the unmerituous privileges bestowed upon a certain race in Malaysia should stand, it stands.
- shareholding in a registered company must include a certain percentage of a certain race, it must be so.
- special discounts should be given to a certain race in loans, it must be given.
- certain land can only be sold or transferred to purchasers of certain race, so be it.
- the majority should have 9 share of a cake, and the rest is to be shared between the minority, that is fairness...even if those 9 share is the harvest from the hardwork of the minority.
- non-Bumi's are parasites of this nation, that is what non-Bumi's will be eternally.
But, don't we ALL pay tax irregardless of race? And where does this tax go to? Catering to the needs of the needy really? Or covering for subsidies given to the special race? Who are the real parasites? And who makes the majority? I think you and I know very well what the answer is.
I had high hopes when 1 Malaysia was launched by the Prime Minister. In fact, I was fully supportive of the 'new' things the Prime Minister was introducing in his administration of this nation. Perhaps I was too idealistic, tsk tsk tsk.
Now, all I have left is million pieces of crushed hope.
And many feel the same way.
I pray that SOON, all in this nation and especially the leaders, will see past the race/ethnic of each individual, and see that we are all created equal in God's eyes, and placed in this beautiful nation for a purpose - working together to make it a better place to live in.
We all thought (or at least I thought): YES! Finally the government decides to remove the Malay/Chinese/Indian/Bumiputra/Non-Bumiputra label given to each person long time ago, and sincerely see each person as 'Malaysian'.
But unfortunately, we all thought wrong.
On the surface, 1 Malaysia is so appealing, giving many the idea that each of us is the same 'Malaysian'. However, the recent turn of events revealed the propaganda hidden behind this appealing-promising campaign. It's back to square one, again.
The idea they had for 1 Malaysia is this: "1 Malaysia bukan kesaksamaan, tetapi keadilan" (1 Malaysia is not about equality, but about fairness.) Further elaboration about what "fairness" means to them would be: The majority wins. So much for democracy.
So, if the majority says that:
- the unmerituous privileges bestowed upon a certain race in Malaysia should stand, it stands.
- shareholding in a registered company must include a certain percentage of a certain race, it must be so.
- special discounts should be given to a certain race in loans, it must be given.
- certain land can only be sold or transferred to purchasers of certain race, so be it.
- the majority should have 9 share of a cake, and the rest is to be shared between the minority, that is fairness...even if those 9 share is the harvest from the hardwork of the minority.
- non-Bumi's are parasites of this nation, that is what non-Bumi's will be eternally.
But, don't we ALL pay tax irregardless of race? And where does this tax go to? Catering to the needs of the needy really? Or covering for subsidies given to the special race? Who are the real parasites? And who makes the majority? I think you and I know very well what the answer is.
I had high hopes when 1 Malaysia was launched by the Prime Minister. In fact, I was fully supportive of the 'new' things the Prime Minister was introducing in his administration of this nation. Perhaps I was too idealistic, tsk tsk tsk.
Now, all I have left is million pieces of crushed hope.
And many feel the same way.
I pray that SOON, all in this nation and especially the leaders, will see past the race/ethnic of each individual, and see that we are all created equal in God's eyes, and placed in this beautiful nation for a purpose - working together to make it a better place to live in.
10.2.10
Vulnerable.
The daily busyness makes us forget how vulnerable we are as human being.
Often people wake up to embrace that reality only when something or someone precious is in jeopardy, or worse, lost.
I've been slapped with this wake up call many times. They always make me realise how I am not connecting enough with my loved ones and people who matter to me. Sometimes, it is already too late.
Don't wait til something happens to tell your loved ones that you love them. Don't wait til the other person apologize. Don't wait til the last moments of your lives to spend time connecting with people who matter, for we are, inevitably, vulnerable.
God bless you BIG.
Often people wake up to embrace that reality only when something or someone precious is in jeopardy, or worse, lost.
I've been slapped with this wake up call many times. They always make me realise how I am not connecting enough with my loved ones and people who matter to me. Sometimes, it is already too late.
Don't wait til something happens to tell your loved ones that you love them. Don't wait til the other person apologize. Don't wait til the last moments of your lives to spend time connecting with people who matter, for we are, inevitably, vulnerable.
God bless you BIG.
8.2.10
Rainy Rat.
It rains almost every evening this February.
One day, it began to rain really heavily around 5p.m. and when I turned around to look outside the window behind my back, checking out how heavy the rain was, I saw a rat outside my window!
I wanted to snap its photo but the moment I lifted the blinds, it scattered off.
On Friday last week, it rained again in the evening and when I turned around, there it was again! That rat which will come visit me when it rains!
This time, I lifted the blinds silently and slowly, and voila! I snapped it :D
Lets see if it visits me again when it rains today, haha.
God bless you!
One day, it began to rain really heavily around 5p.m. and when I turned around to look outside the window behind my back, checking out how heavy the rain was, I saw a rat outside my window!
I wanted to snap its photo but the moment I lifted the blinds, it scattered off.
On Friday last week, it rained again in the evening and when I turned around, there it was again! That rat which will come visit me when it rains!
This time, I lifted the blinds silently and slowly, and voila! I snapped it :D
Rainy Rat.Lets see if it visits me again when it rains today, haha.
God bless you!
3.2.10
Poor Water Bottle.
I just got back from lunch and just had to post this.
I ate chili pan mee at Taipan. I sat facing the road, thinking that it would be more interesting to observe what's going on outside and the people that pass by.
I saw a man walking towards his car parked opposite the pan mee restaurant. He opened the back passenger door, put his laptop bag in, put his water bottle on top oh his car while he was doing that. After he slammed the door shut, he immediately drove off.
The water bottle was still on top of his car....and he drove off like that.
HAHA. This made my day! :D
I ate chili pan mee at Taipan. I sat facing the road, thinking that it would be more interesting to observe what's going on outside and the people that pass by.
I saw a man walking towards his car parked opposite the pan mee restaurant. He opened the back passenger door, put his laptop bag in, put his water bottle on top oh his car while he was doing that. After he slammed the door shut, he immediately drove off.
The water bottle was still on top of his car....and he drove off like that.
HAHA. This made my day! :D
Harimau mari.
2010 in the Lunar calender is the year of the tiger / harimau.
There was already a film made in Malaysia starring many famous Chinese-Malaysian DJ's based on a Chinese tradition in Kuantan that every 60 years, this particular family entrusted with safekeeping the 'Tiger head' would do a ritual dance - Tiger dance (instead of lion dance) to usher in prosperity and goodness into the life of that village.
I enjoyed the film, and laughed really hard. I have to say the DJ's can act! But I was more amazed at how beautiful Malaysia (Kuantan to be more exact) was portrayed to be by the filmmakers. After watching it, I can't help but sigh at how fortunate I am to be living in a beautiful place like Malaysia. It's a good film, if you understand Chinese or don't mind reading the subtitles, go watch it :) It's called Tiger Woohoo!
(http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/1/6/nation/5411535&sec=nation)
Beautiful, and a very touching film.
I hear so much being said about what is good and what is not good in the year of the tiger. Here's my take on a couple of those Chinese superstitions :-
a) It's not a good year to get married.
My take: Crap. Really. Marriage is hard work no matter what and takes effort and commitment from both sides to make it work. So are you saying that if two person get married in the year of the rabbit, they would be very productive? :P It really doesn't matter which year you marry in. Please don't be bound by stupid superstitions like this! And trust me...I've done some divorce cases. None of them married in the year of the tiger.
b) Better for boys to be born in this year than girls, for they turn fierce.
My take: I know some really 'tame' girls born in the year of the tiger. My observation is that even if that girl is not firece, because she lives in an environment that expects her to be, people around her would treat her like she is a 'tiger'. The saying that 'You are what you eat' applies...though here it's more like 'You are what you eat emotionally'. Just like how you will become depress if you hangout with a depress person a lot, girls who are originally not fierce will become fierce sinply because the society expects them to be. They will be influenced by the environment what the stigmas that people attach to them.
c) Girls born in the year of the tiger won't be successful.
My take: Crap again! My aun't born in the year of the tiger. She is successful. Have two kids, a lovely family. A stable career, and big savings. Enough said.
Every year is a year overflowing with blessings and goodness, and amazing things because our God isn't One who will want otherwise for us, not even a tiny bit. Tiger or not, it won't change who God is and what He wants for us.
Happy Chinese New Year!
There was already a film made in Malaysia starring many famous Chinese-Malaysian DJ's based on a Chinese tradition in Kuantan that every 60 years, this particular family entrusted with safekeeping the 'Tiger head' would do a ritual dance - Tiger dance (instead of lion dance) to usher in prosperity and goodness into the life of that village.
I enjoyed the film, and laughed really hard. I have to say the DJ's can act! But I was more amazed at how beautiful Malaysia (Kuantan to be more exact) was portrayed to be by the filmmakers. After watching it, I can't help but sigh at how fortunate I am to be living in a beautiful place like Malaysia. It's a good film, if you understand Chinese or don't mind reading the subtitles, go watch it :) It's called Tiger Woohoo!
(http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/1/6/nation/5411535&sec=nation)
Beautiful, and a very touching film.
I hear so much being said about what is good and what is not good in the year of the tiger. Here's my take on a couple of those Chinese superstitions :-
a) It's not a good year to get married.
My take: Crap. Really. Marriage is hard work no matter what and takes effort and commitment from both sides to make it work. So are you saying that if two person get married in the year of the rabbit, they would be very productive? :P It really doesn't matter which year you marry in. Please don't be bound by stupid superstitions like this! And trust me...I've done some divorce cases. None of them married in the year of the tiger.
b) Better for boys to be born in this year than girls, for they turn fierce.
My take: I know some really 'tame' girls born in the year of the tiger. My observation is that even if that girl is not firece, because she lives in an environment that expects her to be, people around her would treat her like she is a 'tiger'. The saying that 'You are what you eat' applies...though here it's more like 'You are what you eat emotionally'. Just like how you will become depress if you hangout with a depress person a lot, girls who are originally not fierce will become fierce sinply because the society expects them to be. They will be influenced by the environment what the stigmas that people attach to them.
c) Girls born in the year of the tiger won't be successful.
My take: Crap again! My aun't born in the year of the tiger. She is successful. Have two kids, a lovely family. A stable career, and big savings. Enough said.
Every year is a year overflowing with blessings and goodness, and amazing things because our God isn't One who will want otherwise for us, not even a tiny bit. Tiger or not, it won't change who God is and what He wants for us.
Happy Chinese New Year!
22.1.10
How He Reminds Me.
This is how He reminds me that He is still God, and that nothing can take over His place, plans and will:
I planned to head home straight after work today, take a quick shower and head to the supermarket to shop for some food we need for New Friends Nite at Kingdom City Church tomorrow. To do it tomorrow would make my schedule more hectic. And then, I thought of going home after that to do my laundry, prepare for Fireflies tomorrow, and also prepare for gymnastics class before I meet Joanne for supper.
But, when I was leaving my office, it began to rain cats and dogs! So heavy that Taipan was mildly flooded. So I was stranded and could not cross over to the opposite housing area where my car was parked.
I didn't plan on having KFC for dinner. But as I was waiting for the rain to subside at the corner of the shoplots about 200 meters away from my car where KFC was at Taipan, I thought "Oh well, might as well have dinner...at least I can get ONE thing done." I don't like KFC :( But I had no choice tonight.
I got home at 8.30pm, that's 90 minutes behind my initially planned schedule. So I had to strike off a few things on my to-do list. My night became different from what it was supposed to be. It was God who changed it all.
He purposely did that so that in my time of waiting and chewing on the not-very-nice chicken (I really don't like KFC anymore) I could think of Him and ask Him why did He make it rain so heavily. It was His way of reminding me that He is still the God who is in control, and the One who reigns no matter what I have got planned, and no matter how life turns out to be.
We could all type out our life-plan from A-Z, and even have the details added to it. But God, being God, can change everything with just one touch, one word, one event, one second. He changed everything tonight for me with just one heavy rain. He changed everything for Hannah with just one baby boy. He changed everything for the blind man, the woman with the blood issue and the man with cacat hand with just one touch of healing.
This shows the true nature of my God - that in times of trouble and distress, it only takes one God-moment to change everything. It doesn't take a lot...just ONE touch, and ONE sacrifice, One Son - Jesus.
That was how He reminded me that He is God, and it only take one God-willed change to change everything else.
Praise Him!
I planned to head home straight after work today, take a quick shower and head to the supermarket to shop for some food we need for New Friends Nite at Kingdom City Church tomorrow. To do it tomorrow would make my schedule more hectic. And then, I thought of going home after that to do my laundry, prepare for Fireflies tomorrow, and also prepare for gymnastics class before I meet Joanne for supper.
But, when I was leaving my office, it began to rain cats and dogs! So heavy that Taipan was mildly flooded. So I was stranded and could not cross over to the opposite housing area where my car was parked.
I didn't plan on having KFC for dinner. But as I was waiting for the rain to subside at the corner of the shoplots about 200 meters away from my car where KFC was at Taipan, I thought "Oh well, might as well have dinner...at least I can get ONE thing done." I don't like KFC :( But I had no choice tonight.
I got home at 8.30pm, that's 90 minutes behind my initially planned schedule. So I had to strike off a few things on my to-do list. My night became different from what it was supposed to be. It was God who changed it all.
He purposely did that so that in my time of waiting and chewing on the not-very-nice chicken (I really don't like KFC anymore) I could think of Him and ask Him why did He make it rain so heavily. It was His way of reminding me that He is still the God who is in control, and the One who reigns no matter what I have got planned, and no matter how life turns out to be.
We could all type out our life-plan from A-Z, and even have the details added to it. But God, being God, can change everything with just one touch, one word, one event, one second. He changed everything tonight for me with just one heavy rain. He changed everything for Hannah with just one baby boy. He changed everything for the blind man, the woman with the blood issue and the man with cacat hand with just one touch of healing.
This shows the true nature of my God - that in times of trouble and distress, it only takes one God-moment to change everything. It doesn't take a lot...just ONE touch, and ONE sacrifice, One Son - Jesus.
That was how He reminded me that He is God, and it only take one God-willed change to change everything else.
Praise Him!
13.1.10
And yet...
Why is it that when bad things happen, we blame God for them?
But why is it that when good things happen, we never took time to thank God for them?
We always cry out to God for help when we are in trouble.
But we never took the time to talk to Him and connect with Him like real friends do when life is smooth-sailing.
When we achieve something or do something good, we take all the credit for ourselves.
But when we are accused and misunderstood, we take it all on God and never for a second admit that we may have been mistaken.
We tend to only give to God the bad things we have, asking Him to either take them away or turn it around for our good.
But we almost never share the good things we have with Him, nor ask Him to multiply it even more for the glory of His name and not our own.
We are so selfish. I am so selfish.
And yet, all He could think of is me, all He does is for me, and He gave His all for me.
I will never deserve His unfailing love.
But Jesus never stopped loving me, unconditionally.
But why is it that when good things happen, we never took time to thank God for them?
We always cry out to God for help when we are in trouble.
But we never took the time to talk to Him and connect with Him like real friends do when life is smooth-sailing.
When we achieve something or do something good, we take all the credit for ourselves.
But when we are accused and misunderstood, we take it all on God and never for a second admit that we may have been mistaken.
We tend to only give to God the bad things we have, asking Him to either take them away or turn it around for our good.
But we almost never share the good things we have with Him, nor ask Him to multiply it even more for the glory of His name and not our own.
We are so selfish. I am so selfish.
And yet, all He could think of is me, all He does is for me, and He gave His all for me.
I will never deserve His unfailing love.
But Jesus never stopped loving me, unconditionally.
1.1.10
2010 - The Roads
Good day 2010! Welcome :)
2010 looks like this : Roads every where.
I am entering a new district in my drive towards Jesus, the ultimate destination.
I see that there are new bumps on the current road which were not there before. Honestly, I don't like bumps. But they are there for a good reason.
And then, there are roads which have been closed and I can no longer turn into them. But God has also open up new roads for me leading to experiences and blessings which I have never been to.
It's a totally new scenery now. And, I really like it!
Thank God for this new year, and the greater things which He has planned.
2010 looks like this : Roads every where.
I am entering a new district in my drive towards Jesus, the ultimate destination.
I see that there are new bumps on the current road which were not there before. Honestly, I don't like bumps. But they are there for a good reason.
And then, there are roads which have been closed and I can no longer turn into them. But God has also open up new roads for me leading to experiences and blessings which I have never been to.
It's a totally new scenery now. And, I really like it!
Thank God for this new year, and the greater things which He has planned.
23.12.09
According to Him.
According to the world and the evil voice in my head,
I am worthless, useless, nothing, a nobody, not good enough, a failure.
But according to Him, the One who created me,
I am His everything, beautiful, precious, a masterpiece, able, loved.
It is true.
This is the truth.
Otherwise,
He wouldn't have sacrifice His own life to bear my sins.
He wouldn't have thought of me on the cross on which He was crucified.
He wouldn't have paid the price for me to live an abundant life.
He wouldn't have given His everything for me.
I love You, Jesus. Oh my, I must be somebody to You.
Devil, I won't listen to you...because you didn't die for me.
I am worthless, useless, nothing, a nobody, not good enough, a failure.
But according to Him, the One who created me,
I am His everything, beautiful, precious, a masterpiece, able, loved.
It is true.
This is the truth.
Otherwise,
He wouldn't have sacrifice His own life to bear my sins.
He wouldn't have thought of me on the cross on which He was crucified.
He wouldn't have paid the price for me to live an abundant life.
He wouldn't have given His everything for me.
I love You, Jesus. Oh my, I must be somebody to You.
Devil, I won't listen to you...because you didn't die for me.
14.12.09
Bahasa Kuala.
I am back in my hometown for two days. It is great to be home and have the chance to spend time with my family, and the two new dogs at home.
We went to a local coffee shop for breakfast this morning. There were a few stalls selling a variety of noodles and one particular Indian stall selling nasi lemak and roti canai.
What caught my attention in the coffee shop was the dialect the people were speaking in. They were conversing in the local Kuala (Perak) dialect in Bahasa. Words like 'bagus' is 'bagui', 'kamu' is 'hang', and etc.
After staying in KL for so long, I have somehow forgotten the amusing yet important dialect in the Kuala community, a common dialect that united all races and brought people together irregardless of background, faith and age!
I haven't been back in Kuala for a while. And it is great to be back! I love Kuala Kangsar! :)
We went to a local coffee shop for breakfast this morning. There were a few stalls selling a variety of noodles and one particular Indian stall selling nasi lemak and roti canai.
What caught my attention in the coffee shop was the dialect the people were speaking in. They were conversing in the local Kuala (Perak) dialect in Bahasa. Words like 'bagus' is 'bagui', 'kamu' is 'hang', and etc.
After staying in KL for so long, I have somehow forgotten the amusing yet important dialect in the Kuala community, a common dialect that united all races and brought people together irregardless of background, faith and age!
I haven't been back in Kuala for a while. And it is great to be back! I love Kuala Kangsar! :)
1.12.09
He amuses me.
God amuses me, and He keeps me looking forward to it!
Yesterday, a squirrel walked home with me for about 30 meters. It stood up, looked at me and then ran off to a drain after that. I knew God sent it there to accompany me :)
This morning, I stepped out of my house to go to work and saw aa straight row of birds, about 20 of them, sitting still on the power line in front of my house like that Pixar short cartoon. I can't help but smile all my way to work!
Yesterday, a squirrel walked home with me for about 30 meters. It stood up, looked at me and then ran off to a drain after that. I knew God sent it there to accompany me :)
This morning, I stepped out of my house to go to work and saw aa straight row of birds, about 20 of them, sitting still on the power line in front of my house like that Pixar short cartoon. I can't help but smile all my way to work!
10.11.09
Just to thank Him.
I can't contain my thankfulness to Him who answers our prayers, who provides for our needs and even more sometimes. Hence, this blog.
Yesterday night, I asked God whether I am 'redundant', whether or not I will still be used by Him because of some change in circumstances in my life which many thought as something that's against His will.
Today, He answered my prayer. I received a call from a friend who needed prayer, and so I prayed for her, and encouraged her with a verse that's stuck on my wall which I felt would speak to her. And on my way up the stairs to my office, He brought two sisters in Christ into my path who were sharing His word to the whole of Taipan that day. I had the privilege to honour them and said 'Keep up the good work!'...Then I realised that I am still being used.
That was comforting :)
He also showed again to me that He provides for my needs. I was looking for a car park space around 11am in Taipan, a well-known area for lack of parking space in USJ. So I prayed "God, please give me a nice parking space. In Jesus' name, amen."...and guess what? The fourth car on my right side ahead of me reversed, and I had a nice, shaded parking space No. 107 near my office waiting for. Haha!
Oh btw, I like number 7 :P
I only had RM10 in my wallet for lunch. But it so happened that my boss and her husband was eating in the same restaurant as me. I didn't see them because I sat facing the wall and they came in later than me. She paid for my lunch. Woohoo!
Thank God for all the good things and good people He blesses me with!
Yesterday night, I asked God whether I am 'redundant', whether or not I will still be used by Him because of some change in circumstances in my life which many thought as something that's against His will.
Today, He answered my prayer. I received a call from a friend who needed prayer, and so I prayed for her, and encouraged her with a verse that's stuck on my wall which I felt would speak to her. And on my way up the stairs to my office, He brought two sisters in Christ into my path who were sharing His word to the whole of Taipan that day. I had the privilege to honour them and said 'Keep up the good work!'...Then I realised that I am still being used.
That was comforting :)
He also showed again to me that He provides for my needs. I was looking for a car park space around 11am in Taipan, a well-known area for lack of parking space in USJ. So I prayed "God, please give me a nice parking space. In Jesus' name, amen."...and guess what? The fourth car on my right side ahead of me reversed, and I had a nice, shaded parking space No. 107 near my office waiting for. Haha!
Oh btw, I like number 7 :P
I only had RM10 in my wallet for lunch. But it so happened that my boss and her husband was eating in the same restaurant as me. I didn't see them because I sat facing the wall and they came in later than me. She paid for my lunch. Woohoo!
Thank God for all the good things and good people He blesses me with!
3.11.09
The Reason I Smile.
Cheerful; Joyful; Bubbly; Chirpy; Always Smiling; The Girl With The Big Smile.
These are the labels people always gave to me.
But the truth is, I don't always feel like smiling, and I don't have a trouble-free life. This morning was one of the mornings I woke up and didn't feel like smiling at all.
I felt tired even after I slept for almost 10 hours. I didn't feel like smiling because I know there are things ahead of me which I was too chicken to face. Difficulties are waiting for me, with pain and hurt by its sides. I didn't look forward to the day. And my struggles are mocking me.
But... above all that, the person who gave his life for me is smiling to me. He never and will never stop smiling to me as he looks at me no matter what I've done, what I've said and what my circumstances are.
Yes, I don't feel like smiling everyday. But I resolved to smile anyway because Jesus smiles to me, and at me.
I smile because my Provider will care for my every need.
I smile because my King has conquered every sin, shame, guilt, pain and fear for me.
I smile because my Refuge is always there, opening His arms wide for me to run to when I am hurt.
I smile because my Deliverer hears my cries and saves me from being destroyed by my troubles.
I smile because my Healer heals my broken heart.
I smile because my Shepherd abandons all that he has to bring me back to him.
I smile because my Redeemer has ransomed me with His life!
I smile because my Lover loves me irregardless.
I smile because my Teacher guides me and leads me in my wilderness so that I will not be consumed by confusion.
I smile...because the Creator of the universe gave His life, and made Himself available to be with a person whose life is but a breath - me.
Jesus is the reason that I smile.
:) I hope you are smiling because of him too.
These are the labels people always gave to me.
But the truth is, I don't always feel like smiling, and I don't have a trouble-free life. This morning was one of the mornings I woke up and didn't feel like smiling at all.
I felt tired even after I slept for almost 10 hours. I didn't feel like smiling because I know there are things ahead of me which I was too chicken to face. Difficulties are waiting for me, with pain and hurt by its sides. I didn't look forward to the day. And my struggles are mocking me.
But... above all that, the person who gave his life for me is smiling to me. He never and will never stop smiling to me as he looks at me no matter what I've done, what I've said and what my circumstances are.
Yes, I don't feel like smiling everyday. But I resolved to smile anyway because Jesus smiles to me, and at me.
I smile because my Provider will care for my every need.
I smile because my King has conquered every sin, shame, guilt, pain and fear for me.
I smile because my Refuge is always there, opening His arms wide for me to run to when I am hurt.
I smile because my Deliverer hears my cries and saves me from being destroyed by my troubles.
I smile because my Healer heals my broken heart.
I smile because my Shepherd abandons all that he has to bring me back to him.
I smile because my Redeemer has ransomed me with His life!
I smile because my Lover loves me irregardless.
I smile because my Teacher guides me and leads me in my wilderness so that I will not be consumed by confusion.
I smile...because the Creator of the universe gave His life, and made Himself available to be with a person whose life is but a breath - me.
Jesus is the reason that I smile.
:) I hope you are smiling because of him too.
15.9.09
A Wreck I Am.
When my vision became clearer, I realized that I am such a wreck.
I look ahead, and only see how far short I am from the goal.
But do I stop running and give in to hopelessness? Do I let the tiredness I feel in my being stop me?
No!
I fix my eyes on my goal. I keep running forward. I keep running towards my goal - Jesus.
I look ahead, and only see how far short I am from the goal.
But do I stop running and give in to hopelessness? Do I let the tiredness I feel in my being stop me?
No!
I fix my eyes on my goal. I keep running forward. I keep running towards my goal - Jesus.
14.9.09
I'd rather be in struggles.
Issues are issues, whether drastic or not.
What gives us the right to diss or judge others because they are dealing with issues that we are not? Just because we have our life right at this moment does not entitle us to comment about the not-right's in another's life in a disrespectful manner especially in front of other people.
I'd rather you don't mention that person's name in front of me. One's impression on me is for him or her to make, not for you to make.
Now I have to think twice about sharing my struggles. What if it is spoken so freely and openly to another just like how the issues of another were spoken in front of me?
Oh what the heck...
It's definitely good to have my life right. But if I lose compassion and the ability to understand what it's like in another's shoes and the sort of perspective another might have in their struggles, I'd rather be in struggles myself so that I don't become self-righteous.
At least in my struggles, I would totally understand, and will definitely learn to understand.
It's like: The best pal who can help a drug addict to break free is another drug addict who has overcome the addiction.
I'd rather be in struggles than be like you... Everyone has issues. Admit it.
What gives us the right to diss or judge others because they are dealing with issues that we are not? Just because we have our life right at this moment does not entitle us to comment about the not-right's in another's life in a disrespectful manner especially in front of other people.
I'd rather you don't mention that person's name in front of me. One's impression on me is for him or her to make, not for you to make.
Now I have to think twice about sharing my struggles. What if it is spoken so freely and openly to another just like how the issues of another were spoken in front of me?
Oh what the heck...
It's definitely good to have my life right. But if I lose compassion and the ability to understand what it's like in another's shoes and the sort of perspective another might have in their struggles, I'd rather be in struggles myself so that I don't become self-righteous.
At least in my struggles, I would totally understand, and will definitely learn to understand.
It's like: The best pal who can help a drug addict to break free is another drug addict who has overcome the addiction.
I'd rather be in struggles than be like you... Everyone has issues. Admit it.
Not WHAT but HOW.
I always tell others that it is what you go through that will make you.
But today, I change my stand. Whether what one goes through will make or break one depends on HOW one goes through it.
I testify that there had been times when I dealt with issues in my life with a positive attitude, keeping my eyes on the God who reigns forever and evermore; and there had been times when I dealt with issues in my life with much hopelessness, negativity, choosing to be swayed by whatever others tell me and with a wrong attitude.
In the former, I come out of my struggles victorious. Looking back, I can only see that those issues I had to face were platforms that bring me to another level. I grew due to them.
In the latter, I come out of my struggles being even more weighed down by the yoke those issues have formed over my shoulders. They remained issues not dealt with. I get stuck due to them.
I have to say that without God's help and without the truths in His Word, I would probably be facing my issues with the latter outlook. Every problem will seem like a curse. But because of Him, I am glad that every issue is a door to growth and an opportunity to bring Him glory.
With Him, truly all things work for my good, whether they are good things, or seemingly bad things (Rom 8:28). Seriously, with a God to whom I am EVERYTHING, how can things be for my destruction?
Thank God I found Him, and have Him :) God bless y'all.
But today, I change my stand. Whether what one goes through will make or break one depends on HOW one goes through it.
I testify that there had been times when I dealt with issues in my life with a positive attitude, keeping my eyes on the God who reigns forever and evermore; and there had been times when I dealt with issues in my life with much hopelessness, negativity, choosing to be swayed by whatever others tell me and with a wrong attitude.
In the former, I come out of my struggles victorious. Looking back, I can only see that those issues I had to face were platforms that bring me to another level. I grew due to them.
In the latter, I come out of my struggles being even more weighed down by the yoke those issues have formed over my shoulders. They remained issues not dealt with. I get stuck due to them.
I have to say that without God's help and without the truths in His Word, I would probably be facing my issues with the latter outlook. Every problem will seem like a curse. But because of Him, I am glad that every issue is a door to growth and an opportunity to bring Him glory.
With Him, truly all things work for my good, whether they are good things, or seemingly bad things (Rom 8:28). Seriously, with a God to whom I am EVERYTHING, how can things be for my destruction?
Thank God I found Him, and have Him :) God bless y'all.
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