It seems like I have gone to somewhere far far away for awhile. If I didn't return, this blog would have been abandoned and probably adversely possessed by some squatter who squatted on my property without my permission :) hey, my land law is still OK! hehe, Benson must see this...nah, just kidding.
By the way, life has taken yet another turning point, and guess what? I'm loving it! God has shown me that I am one who live and walk on His promises. Truly, He is faithful. And so compassionate.
Anyway, I cam across this email sent to me by a college friend about the difference between a friend and a best friend. Take a look ;)
Friend : calls your parents by mr. and mrs.
Best Friend: calls your parents dad and mom.
Friend : has never seen you cry
Best Friend: has always had the best shoulder to cry on
Friend : never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best Friend: opens the fridge and makes herself at home
Friend : asks you to write down your number
Best Friend: they ask you for their number (cuz they can't remember it
Friend : borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back
Best Friend: has a closet full of your stuff
Friend : only knows a few things about you
Best Friend: could write a biography on your life story
Friend : will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best Friend: will always go with you
Disney Sunset
Disney Sunset
31.3.06
17.3.06
SteReoType
Just take a look at any fashion, trend or leisure magazine today and you will find tons of similar-looking models, dabbed with 3 inches thick (or even more) cosmetics made of low-cost chemicals or supposedly 'organic' substances, posing with seemingly-not-enough-clothe dresses, trying to look cool and 'pretty' or sexy on the coverpage or an advertisement of a branded fragrance.
Yes, they look alike!
They dictate how a person should dress or look like in order to be labled goodlooking or beautiful in their own sense, the sense of this world, of this ugly world. Eughh! I can't imagine anybody would want to look like a fixed virtual doll according to the standards of this world. Well, if my maths is right, it should be something like this: Ugly world = Ugly standards = Ugly looks ;)
People, just be yourself. Just because you are not wearing something in trend or nice according to this world, it doesn't mean you are not beuatiful. BEAUTY IS SKIN-DEEP.
Want to see a clear cut case of stereotype? Look at the photo uploaded above. Voila.
15.3.06
Most Painful Thing
It's 12.30am and my bf is still out 'drinking with friends'. Ah, screw him.
I have better things to write about.
Some experiences are painful. So painful that it sticks on you your whole life. But there are times, and this does not happen to everyone, when it is another person's painful experience that is stuck on you. This occurs when that somebody shared the pain with you. Try to recall the latest sharing about a painful experience by your friend to you. Feeling the pain? Yup. But it is not that painful actually because our hearts are not imparted with the true extent of the pain that our friends felt.
But there is somebody I know that is able to do that. That special someone shared his one and only painful experience in eternity to the selected few in this world. And guess what? The extent of pain is equal to that felt originally by him - God.
In my 22 years of life in this ugly-yet-beautiful-in-many-ways world, I have met 2 persons who have had the opportunity to feel that pain our loving Father felt for us.
After a period of departure from his first church, Jared returned, and as he was praying, he suddenly felt this inexplicable stab of pain in his heart. God said to him in a painful voice, "I have so much to give to my youth, but where are they?" He wept out loud, the loudest ever in his life, that very moment, even before there was any music, before the Sunday service started. Since then, Jared had been contributing to youth ministry in his church and the rest is history.
Few days ago, Sue Ann, while praying, had a vision. In that vision, there was only her and Jesus, standing side by side, in front of a huge lake. A lake full with blood. As she turned to Jesus in the vision, He said to her, "This is the blood that I have shed for my people... but not all have come to me. So many of them are still not with me." Sue Ann was never the same again since the vision, because she felt the pain equal to that felt by Jesus, standing in front of the blood He shed for us.
I used to think that giving birth is the most painful thing on earth. I was mistaken.
Only one encounter with the pain God felt could stay that painful in these people's hearts. Imagine... how painful would it be if it were the sum of all sins and lost souls.
Inexplicable.
I have better things to write about.
Some experiences are painful. So painful that it sticks on you your whole life. But there are times, and this does not happen to everyone, when it is another person's painful experience that is stuck on you. This occurs when that somebody shared the pain with you. Try to recall the latest sharing about a painful experience by your friend to you. Feeling the pain? Yup. But it is not that painful actually because our hearts are not imparted with the true extent of the pain that our friends felt.
But there is somebody I know that is able to do that. That special someone shared his one and only painful experience in eternity to the selected few in this world. And guess what? The extent of pain is equal to that felt originally by him - God.
In my 22 years of life in this ugly-yet-beautiful-in-many-ways world, I have met 2 persons who have had the opportunity to feel that pain our loving Father felt for us.
After a period of departure from his first church, Jared returned, and as he was praying, he suddenly felt this inexplicable stab of pain in his heart. God said to him in a painful voice, "I have so much to give to my youth, but where are they?" He wept out loud, the loudest ever in his life, that very moment, even before there was any music, before the Sunday service started. Since then, Jared had been contributing to youth ministry in his church and the rest is history.
Few days ago, Sue Ann, while praying, had a vision. In that vision, there was only her and Jesus, standing side by side, in front of a huge lake. A lake full with blood. As she turned to Jesus in the vision, He said to her, "This is the blood that I have shed for my people... but not all have come to me. So many of them are still not with me." Sue Ann was never the same again since the vision, because she felt the pain equal to that felt by Jesus, standing in front of the blood He shed for us.
I used to think that giving birth is the most painful thing on earth. I was mistaken.
Only one encounter with the pain God felt could stay that painful in these people's hearts. Imagine... how painful would it be if it were the sum of all sins and lost souls.
Inexplicable.
2.3.06
Should Have's
No, this is not a shopping list that contains the trendiest cosmetics or fashion tips that you should have. I'm not that type of person who will blog about it. Just get CLEO or FEMALE or whatever magazine with a skimpily dressed model at the cover, air-brushed, with lots of make up.
I returned from dinner yesterday and found my Chinese housemate, Y, sitting on the floor with her class schedule in her hand, sulking. She looked so down and sad, and all she did was stare at the schedule in her hand.
I sat down beside her and said all sorts of things to cheer her up. I even played the 'Sausages' game with her. She laughed a little, and returned to her original state.
She had been sitting there sulking for more than 2 hours. Over what? How displeased she was with her daily schedule and worrying about her studies.
This triggered a thought in my mind. Instead of sulking for more than two hours, at least a few minutes should have been used to consider how she can improve her studies and rearrange her schedule, etc, just to get herself out of that miserable state.
A lot of us are like that too. We may complain or blame ourselves or sulk over so many things in our lives, and ask questions like 'Why am I so stupid?' or 'Why I must go through so much pain?'.
Things happen for a reason. Yes, they do. Look at it as a life-learning process for you to grow up and be more mature....or more wise. Instead of feeling miserable over it, we should have done so many other things that could solve the problems. Just take a long look back at your life and see how many "should have's" are there.
God bless you.
I returned from dinner yesterday and found my Chinese housemate, Y, sitting on the floor with her class schedule in her hand, sulking. She looked so down and sad, and all she did was stare at the schedule in her hand.
I sat down beside her and said all sorts of things to cheer her up. I even played the 'Sausages' game with her. She laughed a little, and returned to her original state.
She had been sitting there sulking for more than 2 hours. Over what? How displeased she was with her daily schedule and worrying about her studies.
This triggered a thought in my mind. Instead of sulking for more than two hours, at least a few minutes should have been used to consider how she can improve her studies and rearrange her schedule, etc, just to get herself out of that miserable state.
A lot of us are like that too. We may complain or blame ourselves or sulk over so many things in our lives, and ask questions like 'Why am I so stupid?' or 'Why I must go through so much pain?'.
Things happen for a reason. Yes, they do. Look at it as a life-learning process for you to grow up and be more mature....or more wise. Instead of feeling miserable over it, we should have done so many other things that could solve the problems. Just take a long look back at your life and see how many "should have's" are there.
God bless you.
27.2.06
TreeLess
Maybe it is the craze of bald-om after Thaipusam. In IPG, I not only see many of my Indian pals going bald, the CAR PARK is now bald too!
There used to be a huge tree, pretty old one, on the IPG CAR PARK. Two days ago it was still there when I came to college for the L** exam. But this morning it was gone! *GASP*
I thought the UFO must have abducted the poor tree, or maybe it had gone to the Middle Earth to attend the AGM of the tree-people like those we see in LOTR.
Hehe, OK...lets be sane again. The tree was uprooted from the CAR PARK. And the CAR PARK is now bald with tar toppings.
I miss the tree. Now, I will have no more leaves to remove from AiChing's SLK windscreen. And poor SLK of AiChing and Joy, they will suffer from sun burns and will never be fair again (Scientists, please invent a car UV protection lotion for cars!!). IPG is going to be even hotter now without Mr. Treebeard providing cool and shade to the CAR PARK. And, there is less oxygen to the increasing number of students here.
All these for 2 bloody extra parking spaces. Wow.
There used to be a huge tree, pretty old one, on the IPG CAR PARK. Two days ago it was still there when I came to college for the L** exam. But this morning it was gone! *GASP*
I thought the UFO must have abducted the poor tree, or maybe it had gone to the Middle Earth to attend the AGM of the tree-people like those we see in LOTR.
Hehe, OK...lets be sane again. The tree was uprooted from the CAR PARK. And the CAR PARK is now bald with tar toppings.
I miss the tree. Now, I will have no more leaves to remove from AiChing's SLK windscreen. And poor SLK of AiChing and Joy, they will suffer from sun burns and will never be fair again (Scientists, please invent a car UV protection lotion for cars!!). IPG is going to be even hotter now without Mr. Treebeard providing cool and shade to the CAR PARK. And, there is less oxygen to the increasing number of students here.
All these for 2 bloody extra parking spaces. Wow.
25.2.06
LAN no more.
Yahoo!! Yipee!! Sshhh... Ok, I gotta be rejoicing silently because right now the LAN Malaysian Studies Final Exam is still going on and I am out here, in the library, typing this! hehe. Oh, how I love breaking rules.
Well, actually, I am not breaking rules lar. It's just that I have finished answering the questions and passed up the paper already. So why stay in the exam hall summore? ;)
Did the paper in an hour's time, but I took 15 minutes extra for Moral Studies paper. I am so glad that there will no longer be LAN classes on Saturdays, no more LAN project to do and no more LAN quizes (although I skipped 60% of the classes on Saturdays, hehe) Now, my life is LAN no more!! YEAH!!
However, a mystery remains to be solved until now. From the time I paid RM 160 to the IPG front counter until this moment when I am typing this, I am still wondering: "Why the hell am I sitting for the LAN papers?"
Well, actually, I am not breaking rules lar. It's just that I have finished answering the questions and passed up the paper already. So why stay in the exam hall summore? ;)
Did the paper in an hour's time, but I took 15 minutes extra for Moral Studies paper. I am so glad that there will no longer be LAN classes on Saturdays, no more LAN project to do and no more LAN quizes (although I skipped 60% of the classes on Saturdays, hehe) Now, my life is LAN no more!! YEAH!!
However, a mystery remains to be solved until now. From the time I paid RM 160 to the IPG front counter until this moment when I am typing this, I am still wondering: "Why the hell am I sitting for the LAN papers?"
22.2.06
Amazing Joy
Hehe, Joy, yes you are amazing! But sorry to let you know that I am not writing about you. Perhaps I will, in the foreseeable future *gasp*Oh, no! Look what studying law has done to me!*
In my 22 years of life, I have gone through much joyful moments and painful times too. In fact, to me life seems to have more painful moments than happy ones although I have learned gradually how to see things from the brighter side. But ultimately, I don't see a definite JOY.
However, life seems to have taken its turning point. For the past 5 months, I have been through more struggle and persecution, psychologically and emotionally, from all sorts of people, including those I love dearly, than the sum of challenges I faces in my life before these 'new life' began. Despite all these persecutions, I was never sad for a second.
Luke 2:10 And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. (KJV)
Yes, I was hurt on the way, and trampled on the ground, and thrown into a pit of sorrowful fire. Amazingly, I was joyful, truly JOYFUL, all the way.
Gal 5:2222 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, (KJV)
Thank God. If it was not for HIM, I would most probably suffer a long, slow death, or end up in Tanjung Rambutan, or hell by now. I would like to take this opportunity to ask for a favour from my brothers and sisters who read this to keep me in your prayer. As Jared said: 'At the rate you are growing, the devil will take opportunity to make you fall really hard.' TQ.
Clearly, that which does not kill me will make me stronger. Amen.
In my 22 years of life, I have gone through much joyful moments and painful times too. In fact, to me life seems to have more painful moments than happy ones although I have learned gradually how to see things from the brighter side. But ultimately, I don't see a definite JOY.
However, life seems to have taken its turning point. For the past 5 months, I have been through more struggle and persecution, psychologically and emotionally, from all sorts of people, including those I love dearly, than the sum of challenges I faces in my life before these 'new life' began. Despite all these persecutions, I was never sad for a second.
Luke 2:10 And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. (KJV)
Yes, I was hurt on the way, and trampled on the ground, and thrown into a pit of sorrowful fire. Amazingly, I was joyful, truly JOYFUL, all the way.
Gal 5:2222 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, (KJV)
Thank God. If it was not for HIM, I would most probably suffer a long, slow death, or end up in Tanjung Rambutan, or hell by now. I would like to take this opportunity to ask for a favour from my brothers and sisters who read this to keep me in your prayer. As Jared said: 'At the rate you are growing, the devil will take opportunity to make you fall really hard.' TQ.
Clearly, that which does not kill me will make me stronger. Amen.
Satan's Work
As quietly as God works, Satan too have been working silently. This is why it is very damaging, since people are just too blind to see these invisible forces and if they do see them, it is very likely for them to make a mistake in telling the difference.
For example, when God has blessed a person with much gifts, it could be seen as 'Oh, I'm being lucky!', etc. They failed to see that they should thank God for it and they failed to see how much God loves them.
Many things around us show how the Satan successfully blinded many of us to see the beauty of the Lord. Visit this site and see how Bible verses were taken as 'hate literature'! www.worldnetdaily.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=31080
Matthew 9:24
He said unto them, Give place: for the maid is not dead, but sleepeth. And they laughed him to scorn.
Yes, it is sad. But there is still hope. Perhaps, all these can be taken as a process for us to learn to be more compassionate, and to be a better example of Christ.
Matt 5:10-12
10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Rev 2:9-10
9 I know thy works, and tribulation, and poverty, (but thou art rich) and I know the blasphemy of them which say they are Jews, and are not, but are the synagogue of Satan.
Have you allowed Satan to blind you?
For example, when God has blessed a person with much gifts, it could be seen as 'Oh, I'm being lucky!', etc. They failed to see that they should thank God for it and they failed to see how much God loves them.
Many things around us show how the Satan successfully blinded many of us to see the beauty of the Lord. Visit this site and see how Bible verses were taken as 'hate literature'! www.worldnetdaily.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=31080
Matthew 9:24
He said unto them, Give place: for the maid is not dead, but sleepeth. And they laughed him to scorn.
Yes, it is sad. But there is still hope. Perhaps, all these can be taken as a process for us to learn to be more compassionate, and to be a better example of Christ.
Matt 5:10-12
10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Rev 2:9-10
9 I know thy works, and tribulation, and poverty, (but thou art rich) and I know the blasphemy of them which say they are Jews, and are not, but are the synagogue of Satan.
Have you allowed Satan to blind you?
20.2.06
It's 50!
Yeah, welcome to my 50th posting in my Chocoholic blog! Didn't know I could even reach this point. Applause to myself *clap clap clap* OK, enough with the crap, let's get down to business.
February is ending and so much amazing things have happened in this year.
This morning when I was having breakfast at the college canteen with Aiching and Joy, I received a SMS from my hometown friend who is currently working in Singapore. The translated version goes like this "I'm getting married on 29th this month! Can't believe I will be the first despite all the statements I've made about remaining single. I will tell you the story later..sorry!"
As blur as I could be, I fell for it. I replied with a message of shock, put down my phone, started eating my pineapple fried rice, then I realised... there is no 29th this month. I got dooped!!
Embarassment aside... Joshua House celebrated Charmaine's belated birthday yesterday after our weekly prayer meeting. It is the tradition that before we get a bite on the cake, each person present will say a word of encouragement to the birthday boy or girl. So everyone said something, and Jonn, Charmaine's boyfriend, was the last to say it.
He started out with Charmaine being a Joshua House member, as a friend, as a daughter, and then as a girlfriend. He shared such touching comments, and with the way they were looking into each other's eyes, it was exactly like any romantic movie I've seen in the cinema... but this is even better because it's live!
Charmaine has everything necessary to be a good girlfriend. According to Jonn, what he looked for the most was love for God. True enough, one who truly loves God will never forget about love for family, friends, etc. Charmaine is an excellent example.
Jonn then said, "I really appreciate to have you in my life and thank God for it,and...", at this moment, all of us said, "And??And??Continue!"
The room filled laughter which made Jonn and Charmaine blushed. When silence took hold of the room again, Jonn continued, "You mean the world to me...and I love you."
Jonn then hugged Charmaine...and what was I doing? You guess it...CRYING :)
February is ending and so much amazing things have happened in this year.
This morning when I was having breakfast at the college canteen with Aiching and Joy, I received a SMS from my hometown friend who is currently working in Singapore. The translated version goes like this "I'm getting married on 29th this month! Can't believe I will be the first despite all the statements I've made about remaining single. I will tell you the story later..sorry!"
As blur as I could be, I fell for it. I replied with a message of shock, put down my phone, started eating my pineapple fried rice, then I realised... there is no 29th this month. I got dooped!!
Embarassment aside... Joshua House celebrated Charmaine's belated birthday yesterday after our weekly prayer meeting. It is the tradition that before we get a bite on the cake, each person present will say a word of encouragement to the birthday boy or girl. So everyone said something, and Jonn, Charmaine's boyfriend, was the last to say it.
He started out with Charmaine being a Joshua House member, as a friend, as a daughter, and then as a girlfriend. He shared such touching comments, and with the way they were looking into each other's eyes, it was exactly like any romantic movie I've seen in the cinema... but this is even better because it's live!
Charmaine has everything necessary to be a good girlfriend. According to Jonn, what he looked for the most was love for God. True enough, one who truly loves God will never forget about love for family, friends, etc. Charmaine is an excellent example.
Jonn then said, "I really appreciate to have you in my life and thank God for it,and...", at this moment, all of us said, "And??And??Continue!"
The room filled laughter which made Jonn and Charmaine blushed. When silence took hold of the room again, Jonn continued, "You mean the world to me...and I love you."
Jonn then hugged Charmaine...and what was I doing? You guess it...CRYING :)
16.2.06
Does it matter?
The secret of a good life is to have the right loyalties and hold them in the right scale of values.
by Norman Thomas
So many people in this world engaged in unnecessary debates and caused themselves much trouble for concerning themselves with things that do not matter at all. Just try listening to others' conversations (not eavesdropping, but welcomed ones of course) when you are hanging out with a group of friends, colleagues, or even within your family. How many topics in the conversation are actually important?
No doubt, we need to get away from our hectic and busy routine life once in a while to stay sane by being insane and be involved in nutty actions or pointless talks just to laugh or have a good time. But most of us have forgotten the fact that there are many matters worth our attention much much much more than all these.
For example, questions like 'How does my skirt look?' or 'Is my butt beautiful?' or 'XYZ got higher marks than you for ABC paper ah?'
Pointless!
Just look at how many people out there who are suffering, and who could have lived a better life only if you divert your attention to them instead of all these pointless matters. A small effort from you can make a big difference! Who cares if your skirt looks odd or is your butt is sexy or if you got higher marks than another student in the class. When you die, all these will fade away and holds no significance.
So please stop comparing one's marks with another's. What matters is how you can do better than your current state, not theirs! Live your life! If you adopt another's standards, you will be living someone else's life.
Get a grip!!
PS: To Parvin, no offence when I got upset yesterday when you compared contract paper marks. I seriously do not care and was disappointed that you have engaged in pointless comparison. Sorry.
by Norman Thomas
So many people in this world engaged in unnecessary debates and caused themselves much trouble for concerning themselves with things that do not matter at all. Just try listening to others' conversations (not eavesdropping, but welcomed ones of course) when you are hanging out with a group of friends, colleagues, or even within your family. How many topics in the conversation are actually important?
No doubt, we need to get away from our hectic and busy routine life once in a while to stay sane by being insane and be involved in nutty actions or pointless talks just to laugh or have a good time. But most of us have forgotten the fact that there are many matters worth our attention much much much more than all these.
For example, questions like 'How does my skirt look?' or 'Is my butt beautiful?' or 'XYZ got higher marks than you for ABC paper ah?'
Pointless!
Just look at how many people out there who are suffering, and who could have lived a better life only if you divert your attention to them instead of all these pointless matters. A small effort from you can make a big difference! Who cares if your skirt looks odd or is your butt is sexy or if you got higher marks than another student in the class. When you die, all these will fade away and holds no significance.
So please stop comparing one's marks with another's. What matters is how you can do better than your current state, not theirs! Live your life! If you adopt another's standards, you will be living someone else's life.
Get a grip!!
PS: To Parvin, no offence when I got upset yesterday when you compared contract paper marks. I seriously do not care and was disappointed that you have engaged in pointless comparison. Sorry.
13.2.06
Pink Monday
Valentines is tomorrow.
Love is in the air
and PINK is everywhere!
I arrived at college to find men and women wearing PINK. I wonder how come PINK had always been used to associate things with love. Here are some of the meanings of the colour I found:
Love
Grace
Gentility
You're so Lovely (Royal Pain a.k.a. Gwen wore PINK)
Perfect Happiness (I need statistics to acknowledge this)
Please believe me (A friend's cousin wears PINK all over, she lies like an expert)
Romance
Friendship (I doubt this)
Femininity (Meterosexuals dilemma??)
Truth (Comment has been made above. How come the judges don't wear PINK?)
Passivity
Emotional healing (I don't see how any counselors prescribed their patients to wear PINK)
Calming
Affection
Caring
Sweet
Ethereal
In different places, the colour also reflects different element:
European : Feminine colour, baby girls
East India : Feminine colour
Japan : Popular with both sexes (Oh, this is disastour!)
Korea : trust (This is not foolproof)
Feng Shui : Yin, love
Honestly, I personally dislike PINK because since young, I find so many girls wearing PINK and they all somehow seemed to sweet for me to handle and I became 'jelak' of it and whenever I saw it, I want to puke! No offence to all those who likes PINK.
Now, guys are wearing PINK too! Arghh!!!
Love is in the air
and PINK is everywhere!
I arrived at college to find men and women wearing PINK. I wonder how come PINK had always been used to associate things with love. Here are some of the meanings of the colour I found:
Love
Grace
Gentility
You're so Lovely (Royal Pain a.k.a. Gwen wore PINK)
Perfect Happiness (I need statistics to acknowledge this)
Please believe me (A friend's cousin wears PINK all over, she lies like an expert)
Romance
Friendship (I doubt this)
Femininity (Meterosexuals dilemma??)
Truth (Comment has been made above. How come the judges don't wear PINK?)
Passivity
Emotional healing (I don't see how any counselors prescribed their patients to wear PINK)
Calming
Affection
Caring
Sweet
Ethereal
In different places, the colour also reflects different element:
European : Feminine colour, baby girls
East India : Feminine colour
Japan : Popular with both sexes (Oh, this is disastour!)
Korea : trust (This is not foolproof)
Feng Shui : Yin, love
Honestly, I personally dislike PINK because since young, I find so many girls wearing PINK and they all somehow seemed to sweet for me to handle and I became 'jelak' of it and whenever I saw it, I want to puke! No offence to all those who likes PINK.
Now, guys are wearing PINK too! Arghh!!!
ReTreaT disCoverY
Back from Penang Hill Leaders' Retreat! Sorry, no photos could be uploaded yet
I miss the weather up there though. So cooling even though it's sunny. Exactly the same as Canada, my favourite climate!
Learned so much in the retreat and I had a smashing good time with my lovely brothers and sisters from Joshua House. Although it was a short retreat, I got so much from God and from them too! Life has become even more beautiful and worth it now!
The sharing on the Bible was about Moses, the book of Exodus and the tabernacle in Numbers. God truly opened my eyes to see the mindset that He wants us to adopt while reading His words. This is a discovery that I will treasure until the day I enter His kingdom.
Anyways, the retreat was truly a refreshing experience for me as it was my first official outing with Joshua House. The spiders, ands and mosquitoes there are twice and triple the size of the insects we find at home! And there are all sorts of other funny funny insects too!
In the mornings, I awake to find beautiful-sparkling morning dews on the grass. I haven't see this for a long, long time. Lots of beatiful houses, very old-victorian style, and flowers there too! Although the journey from the train station to the Methodist centre was quite tiring (Yes, it is time to work out), I enjoyed it very much!
At nights, when we sleep, the sound of the wind blowing and the movement of the leaves could be heard so clearly, and the insects' concert too.
It was a wonderful retreat. And I miss it :(
But I am glad that I know my life in this world now has taken a turning point. Now the roller-coaster ride has begun...and I am so excited about it!!
I miss the weather up there though. So cooling even though it's sunny. Exactly the same as Canada, my favourite climate!
Learned so much in the retreat and I had a smashing good time with my lovely brothers and sisters from Joshua House. Although it was a short retreat, I got so much from God and from them too! Life has become even more beautiful and worth it now!
The sharing on the Bible was about Moses, the book of Exodus and the tabernacle in Numbers. God truly opened my eyes to see the mindset that He wants us to adopt while reading His words. This is a discovery that I will treasure until the day I enter His kingdom.
Anyways, the retreat was truly a refreshing experience for me as it was my first official outing with Joshua House. The spiders, ands and mosquitoes there are twice and triple the size of the insects we find at home! And there are all sorts of other funny funny insects too!
In the mornings, I awake to find beautiful-sparkling morning dews on the grass. I haven't see this for a long, long time. Lots of beatiful houses, very old-victorian style, and flowers there too! Although the journey from the train station to the Methodist centre was quite tiring (Yes, it is time to work out), I enjoyed it very much!
At nights, when we sleep, the sound of the wind blowing and the movement of the leaves could be heard so clearly, and the insects' concert too.
It was a wonderful retreat. And I miss it :(
But I am glad that I know my life in this world now has taken a turning point. Now the roller-coaster ride has begun...and I am so excited about it!!
29.1.06
The World
It is ugly
It is scary
It is full of hatred
It is the world.
Look closely
You'll see
So much sorrows
So much pain
So much evil
It is the world
Everyday
Tragedy rules
In the headlines
In people's lives
In people's heart
In this world.
And yet
they have turned away
from the ultimate joy
the ultimate One
Full of love
that could save
This world.
It is so clear
It is so certain
We need more
of this love
to beautify lives
In this world.
Still
People made their hearts
Into stones
and then complain
about the tragedies
When they
Could have make
a BIG difference.
This
is the world.
So come
brothers and sisters
Let us strive
to be prayer warriors
So this infinite love
Can give endless hope
that counters evil.
It may be exhausting
And costly
BUT
this is the world.
Hepi CNY to y'all!
The poem, which sadly is not even a lousy poem (I'm not born a poet!Pls forgive me for that), was inspired by a discovery of an ugly truth :)
I just found out this morning that my house was suppose to be my neighbour's house...ermm, you see, my house is a corner/side house with empty land by the side. So next to my house is another house with a strip of empty land, it is the beginning of another stretch of houses.
When my parents paid deposit for this house which they purchased13 years ago (or longer than that), they actually paid for these two side houses. Right now, I am living in one side house, but my grandma is living in the house next to mine now, the second house in this stretch of houses, not the other side house which my parents had paid the deposit for.
It was only now that I found out that my neighbour did some 'dirty work' which was probably a bribe, to get that side house which my parents had paid deposit for.
Wow, this world is really ugly. And my neighbours are really difficult to love. They are wonderful examples of 'this world', so ugly, so sorrowful, so terrible. This is only one example of the evil things they did...and there's a long, long list of sich things they did. I will never look at them the same way as I did.
And yet, I have to love them, hoping that one day they will repent for their wrongdoings and sins. It id difficult...but the Lord's love keep me going.
Brothers and sisters, do keep each other in our prayers...because there are so many people like this in this world.
26.1.06
Victim of Prejudice
My landlady hates me.
Everything I do in her eyes is wrong. She'll confront me alone even if other housemates did the same thing as me. She depises me just because I have a large circle of wonderful friends. She accuses me for being evil, and asked me why I cannot be like other housemates who were according to her good because they do not bring friends to the house. Yes, those were her words.
But other housemates have brought their friends to the house, not once but many times. And she knew it. Why only bombard me?
Clearly, she has prejudices against me.
...for wicked and deceitful men have opened their mouths against me... Psalm 109:2
She calls me a socially promiscuous girl. She sees me as chastised... for the friends I have.
She hates Malays and Indians for no reason, well, at least she couldn't give me one reason when I asked her why. And just because a friend, Indian/Malay, comes to my place for tuition and help in her studies once or twice a week, she hates me. The problem clearly lies with her, not me. So much for 'perpaduan'.
She accused me for being 'bu san bu si' (having chaotic lifestlye) because, according to her, I bring all sorts of friends to the house. Until today, only AiChing, Joy, my tuition friend, Mandy and a junior came to the house before. The tuition friend had only needed academic help, so was my junior who only came once yesterday. Mandy only sat in my room for 10 minutes while she waited for me to pack to go back to hometown because she was giving me a ride to the jetty. And my landlady said "That day you some more brought an aunty home". Joy, came only twice, for prayer, less than 15 minutes, and to collect the stuff for the CF BBQ. AiChing, she only came to change so we could go for our evening walks along Gurney.
Only 5 persons...and she said that I am 'bu san bu si'.
...With words of hatred they surround me; they attack me without cause. In return for my friendship they accuse me... Psalm 109: 3-4.
Besides for my friends, she also despised me in other things, things that other housemate did as well. But she only confronted me. She should have lay down the restrictions and regulations when I moved in, not now. Or perhaps she should list down her love's and hate's (the list would probably only have endless hate's). She calls me evil....for being kind to my friends. Oh, I want to hate her so much!! But I won't.
I pray to the Lord to remove her prejudices, and also to remove the anger in me towards her prejudice against me. I know there's no need to hate her, because the Lord will deal with her.
...when they attack they will be put to shame, but your servant will rejoice. Psalm 109: 28.
Yes, through all these struggles I have been blessed. With more wonderful friends added to my already large circle of wonderful friends, who let me see my worth, and let me know they love me. Thank you God. Thank you Xiao Yue, Joy ;) and TY.
Everything I do in her eyes is wrong. She'll confront me alone even if other housemates did the same thing as me. She depises me just because I have a large circle of wonderful friends. She accuses me for being evil, and asked me why I cannot be like other housemates who were according to her good because they do not bring friends to the house. Yes, those were her words.
But other housemates have brought their friends to the house, not once but many times. And she knew it. Why only bombard me?
Clearly, she has prejudices against me.
...for wicked and deceitful men have opened their mouths against me... Psalm 109:2
She calls me a socially promiscuous girl. She sees me as chastised... for the friends I have.
She hates Malays and Indians for no reason, well, at least she couldn't give me one reason when I asked her why. And just because a friend, Indian/Malay, comes to my place for tuition and help in her studies once or twice a week, she hates me. The problem clearly lies with her, not me. So much for 'perpaduan'.
She accused me for being 'bu san bu si' (having chaotic lifestlye) because, according to her, I bring all sorts of friends to the house. Until today, only AiChing, Joy, my tuition friend, Mandy and a junior came to the house before. The tuition friend had only needed academic help, so was my junior who only came once yesterday. Mandy only sat in my room for 10 minutes while she waited for me to pack to go back to hometown because she was giving me a ride to the jetty. And my landlady said "That day you some more brought an aunty home". Joy, came only twice, for prayer, less than 15 minutes, and to collect the stuff for the CF BBQ. AiChing, she only came to change so we could go for our evening walks along Gurney.
Only 5 persons...and she said that I am 'bu san bu si'.
...With words of hatred they surround me; they attack me without cause. In return for my friendship they accuse me... Psalm 109: 3-4.
Besides for my friends, she also despised me in other things, things that other housemate did as well. But she only confronted me. She should have lay down the restrictions and regulations when I moved in, not now. Or perhaps she should list down her love's and hate's (the list would probably only have endless hate's). She calls me evil....for being kind to my friends. Oh, I want to hate her so much!! But I won't.
I pray to the Lord to remove her prejudices, and also to remove the anger in me towards her prejudice against me. I know there's no need to hate her, because the Lord will deal with her.
...when they attack they will be put to shame, but your servant will rejoice. Psalm 109: 28.
Yes, through all these struggles I have been blessed. With more wonderful friends added to my already large circle of wonderful friends, who let me see my worth, and let me know they love me. Thank you God. Thank you Xiao Yue, Joy ;) and TY.
24.1.06
MeowinG-PineApple
A guy in college
whose name I do not know of
starting meowing to me
since yesterday
in the library
for no reason!
Since then
he kept meowing at me
whenever he sees me
in college.
And he has pineapple pattern hair.
Weird 'The Look's
So many things we do will cause others to give us a look, a weird look.
They look at us as though they have never seen a human, or an alien from another planet, or simple some crazy-nutty-weirdo to them.
Just like this morning (in fact almost every morning now), Jonathan and Hazwani, and many new students in college who I don't know, gave me the look when me and Joy were praying in the car. I can't help wondering what is their thought when they gave us that look.... haha, it's probably 'Look at those holy girls again.' or 'Yer...what are they doing?'
Here's a list of some of the things I did that resulted in someone giving me the look:
- when I started laughing by myself when I am alone after a funny thought crossed my mind
- when I stared at somebody for too long
- saying HI to a stranger
- acting nuts in public
- jumping around
- looking at two person talking to each other in the library
- smiling for no reason
- asking a friend an abrupt unrelated question
- crying in public
- talking to a stranger whom I thought was a friend
If you have faced different or funny situations like this, do post a comment and share the story ;)
They look at us as though they have never seen a human, or an alien from another planet, or simple some crazy-nutty-weirdo to them.
Just like this morning (in fact almost every morning now), Jonathan and Hazwani, and many new students in college who I don't know, gave me the look when me and Joy were praying in the car. I can't help wondering what is their thought when they gave us that look.... haha, it's probably 'Look at those holy girls again.' or 'Yer...what are they doing?'
Here's a list of some of the things I did that resulted in someone giving me the look:
- when I started laughing by myself when I am alone after a funny thought crossed my mind
- when I stared at somebody for too long
- saying HI to a stranger
- acting nuts in public
- jumping around
- looking at two person talking to each other in the library
- smiling for no reason
- asking a friend an abrupt unrelated question
- crying in public
- talking to a stranger whom I thought was a friend
If you have faced different or funny situations like this, do post a comment and share the story ;)
21.1.06
Golden Globe Thanksgiving
It is now time for me to say thank you to many people...although I did not win any Golden Globe or whatsoever :) These people have opened my eyes and touched my heart to see and feel something that majes this life so much more beautiful. And I truly feel ashamed that I haven't been loving them :(
Nevertheless, here it goes:
My aunt - when I was back in my hometown for a week, my aunt bought breakfast for me every morning even without me asking. And she didn't ask for a cent back.
My grandmother - everytime I see her, I want to cry. I am sure you would too. She's in critical serious stage of osteoperosis, and yet she gathers her strength to cook my favourite dishes and nutritious soups for me when I am back in my hometown. Oh God, I pray really hard that He will save her.
My lovely family - my parents and brothers, and cousins made me realised that I am one of the luckiest person in this world. Without them, what would I be??
My wonderful close friends - thank you for reminding me that God is always near, and that the rainbow is always the most beautiful thing, and sunsets will not be what they are without you all, the CDs you lent me, the 1 cents you gave me and everything else. I love y'all...
My not-so-close friends - thank you for smiling at me or smiling back at me when I smile at you.
TY - all those times you have to bear with my imperfections. Thank you for your patience, although I know you have very little of it :)
Eveyone else - thank you for giving me the opprtunity to share my love, joy, and chocolate with you.
All those perasan and seemingly incorrigible people out there - without you all, I will have one thing less to work on towards knowing God. Thank you being a challenge.
Good luck to you all.
Nevertheless, here it goes:
My aunt - when I was back in my hometown for a week, my aunt bought breakfast for me every morning even without me asking. And she didn't ask for a cent back.
My grandmother - everytime I see her, I want to cry. I am sure you would too. She's in critical serious stage of osteoperosis, and yet she gathers her strength to cook my favourite dishes and nutritious soups for me when I am back in my hometown. Oh God, I pray really hard that He will save her.
My lovely family - my parents and brothers, and cousins made me realised that I am one of the luckiest person in this world. Without them, what would I be??
My wonderful close friends - thank you for reminding me that God is always near, and that the rainbow is always the most beautiful thing, and sunsets will not be what they are without you all, the CDs you lent me, the 1 cents you gave me and everything else. I love y'all...
My not-so-close friends - thank you for smiling at me or smiling back at me when I smile at you.
TY - all those times you have to bear with my imperfections. Thank you for your patience, although I know you have very little of it :)
Eveyone else - thank you for giving me the opprtunity to share my love, joy, and chocolate with you.
All those perasan and seemingly incorrigible people out there - without you all, I will have one thing less to work on towards knowing God. Thank you being a challenge.
Good luck to you all.
17.1.06
The Value of 1 Cent
I started collecting 1 cents since a very young age. At that time, I didn't really appreciate why I did so. I began after hearing a story about how a guy in some country far far away became a millionaire from collecting 1 cents. It seems quite an inspiration to me back then...but eventually, as I got older, I collect 1 cents out of habit instead of out of desperation to be a millionaire ;)
For more than 8 years in my 22 years of life, I just collected 1 cents which I got from the change I received at the cashier counter, from my friends...or from places where I found them lying on the floor...unwanted.
But after so many years, I began to see no point of collecting 1 cents. After so many years of collection, I calculated the other day, that I only managed to save RM20.00 (more or less) of 1 cents. I began to lose the zeal to collect 1 cents....until....
A friend who visited Myanmar a few months ago told me many interesting stories about the country and the people there. The things that intrigues me the most is their poverty. They work 30days a month only to earn from 38 cents to RM 3.80 (not the rich ones). It was a clear situation of 'the rich is getting richer but the poor is getting poorer'. However, despite their poverty, these people are so happy and lived a purposeful life!
It made me realise how much a piece of bronze metal weighing less than 5g can mean so much...and so many of us are casting them away, leaving them lying on the street when it could be used to help these people live a better life. All we need is 38 1 cents.... and I already got plenty of them :)
Value your 1 cents...if you don't want them, give them to me. I will go Myanmar this year...well, even if I didn't, my 1 cents would :)
For more than 8 years in my 22 years of life, I just collected 1 cents which I got from the change I received at the cashier counter, from my friends...or from places where I found them lying on the floor...unwanted.
But after so many years, I began to see no point of collecting 1 cents. After so many years of collection, I calculated the other day, that I only managed to save RM20.00 (more or less) of 1 cents. I began to lose the zeal to collect 1 cents....until....
A friend who visited Myanmar a few months ago told me many interesting stories about the country and the people there. The things that intrigues me the most is their poverty. They work 30days a month only to earn from 38 cents to RM 3.80 (not the rich ones). It was a clear situation of 'the rich is getting richer but the poor is getting poorer'. However, despite their poverty, these people are so happy and lived a purposeful life!
It made me realise how much a piece of bronze metal weighing less than 5g can mean so much...and so many of us are casting them away, leaving them lying on the street when it could be used to help these people live a better life. All we need is 38 1 cents.... and I already got plenty of them :)
Value your 1 cents...if you don't want them, give them to me. I will go Myanmar this year...well, even if I didn't, my 1 cents would :)
13.1.06
Me and Lizard
When you are disgusted about something, like people digging gold (nostrils) in public especially in luxurious cars, or when you fear something more... they seem to appeal to you more, and happens often in your daily life. Am I right?
For example, the more you are afraid of spiders, the more encounters you will have with them.
This was the relationship, or perhaps you can call it fate, with lizards.
The first time a lizard ever lay its four tiny-sticky legs on my skin was when I was 10. I was attending training for gymnastics at a hall in Taiping. And there are so many lizards there. Once I wanted to throw some trash into the dustbin and the moment I lifted the lid of the bin up, a lizard, HUGE lizard, climbed onto my hand which was holding the lid. I screamed for my life and threw the lid on the floor, swung my hand until it almost came off. Thank God, the lizard fell and scatterred off to its next hiding place.
The second encounter I had with a lizard, at the very same hall, was in the toilet. The moment I stepped into the cubicle, a lizard, HUGE one again, climbed onto my right leg and again, I sreamed for my life and hopped and jumped around like a chimpanzee until it fell off from my leg.
The third time a lizard climbed onto me was around 1 or 2 years ago. I can't recall the details so I will not dwell in it. Nevertheless, in my room right now, a lizard, yes, it is a HUGE one, seems to be living there together with me and my roommate. Perhaps it has been there even before we moved in. So this roommate of mine always run across my room to go to the other room next to mine. This, amazingly, happens every day. It's like a routine. Funny....
I even stepped on lizard eggs before..and believe it or not, I crushed a lizards head before, with my bare heel. Yuck! I only heard a cracking sound. And when I turned and looked onto the floor, there is was, flatten...at the head.
Just yesterday, I had another encounter with lizards again. I wanted to take water to fill my pail with water. The moment I grabbed the senduk, a lizard, not so huge this time, climbed onto my right hand. Arrghhh!!!...hehe, nuh, this time I didn't scream. I just swung my hand like the first time until the lizard fell, carried on my business.
Sometimes, I wonder if the lizards have a conspiracy against me....or maybe they have plotted a spying mission on me. Of course....I'm not nuts enough to confirm that this was what they are doing to me :)
Nevertheless, I shall overcome my disgust and fear for lizards. So I will not encounter them again....well, at least not so often.
For example, the more you are afraid of spiders, the more encounters you will have with them.
This was the relationship, or perhaps you can call it fate, with lizards.
The first time a lizard ever lay its four tiny-sticky legs on my skin was when I was 10. I was attending training for gymnastics at a hall in Taiping. And there are so many lizards there. Once I wanted to throw some trash into the dustbin and the moment I lifted the lid of the bin up, a lizard, HUGE lizard, climbed onto my hand which was holding the lid. I screamed for my life and threw the lid on the floor, swung my hand until it almost came off. Thank God, the lizard fell and scatterred off to its next hiding place.
The second encounter I had with a lizard, at the very same hall, was in the toilet. The moment I stepped into the cubicle, a lizard, HUGE one again, climbed onto my right leg and again, I sreamed for my life and hopped and jumped around like a chimpanzee until it fell off from my leg.
The third time a lizard climbed onto me was around 1 or 2 years ago. I can't recall the details so I will not dwell in it. Nevertheless, in my room right now, a lizard, yes, it is a HUGE one, seems to be living there together with me and my roommate. Perhaps it has been there even before we moved in. So this roommate of mine always run across my room to go to the other room next to mine. This, amazingly, happens every day. It's like a routine. Funny....
I even stepped on lizard eggs before..and believe it or not, I crushed a lizards head before, with my bare heel. Yuck! I only heard a cracking sound. And when I turned and looked onto the floor, there is was, flatten...at the head.
Just yesterday, I had another encounter with lizards again. I wanted to take water to fill my pail with water. The moment I grabbed the senduk, a lizard, not so huge this time, climbed onto my right hand. Arrghhh!!!...hehe, nuh, this time I didn't scream. I just swung my hand like the first time until the lizard fell, carried on my business.
Sometimes, I wonder if the lizards have a conspiracy against me....or maybe they have plotted a spying mission on me. Of course....I'm not nuts enough to confirm that this was what they are doing to me :)
Nevertheless, I shall overcome my disgust and fear for lizards. So I will not encounter them again....well, at least not so often.
11.1.06
Death Omen? Nuh...
To someone superstitious, the sight of a dead cat in front of the house gate will make that person's day.
Although I am not suprstitious, I will still share this story.
Two days ago, as I was stepping out of my house to go to college in my usual beautiful morning walk, I saw a dead cat in front of my house... right in front of my house. A few crows were flying over it, chewing and nibbling at the cat... well, dead cat. The head and body were flatten until I can't tll which was which. Only its 4 legs were left 'undisturbed'. Surprisingly, there wasn't a lot of blood, but there were a lot of flesh!
On th same day, in th evening when I was walking along Gurney Drive with AiChing in our quest for a fitter body (which I failed to achieve despite so many months of 'effort'), we came across a dead dolphin. It was right opposite of Gurney Plaza, lying there motionless on the beach. 3 boys climbed down and got a really close look at it. The moment one of them suggsted touching it, all of them got disgusted at the thought of it and left. The tongue was sticking out, and its intestines were all over the place around the body. There was a long stick, wood I think, that pierced its stomach right above the hole where all the intestines came out from. Now there was a lot of blood. And it stinks like hell!
The creepy thing was, 5 minutes before me and AiChing reached the place where the dead dolphine was at, we saw a tree full of crows. And they are known as relatives of death. 5 minutes later we saw the dead dolphin.
Yesterday morning, when Parvin and I wer walking to the corner shop near my place to get breakfast before we attend a study workshop, we saw a dead rat. It is quite common in my area, as there are abundance of rats there. But it was quite disgusting. Not much blood, but lots of flesh again.
Death could be creepy... and when you saw what happens to these dead animals, you could imagine how tragic it was. But in th end, death is not so scary afterall.. cos I know, I will be at a better place. Much better :)
Hope I didn't spoil your apetite.
Although I am not suprstitious, I will still share this story.
Two days ago, as I was stepping out of my house to go to college in my usual beautiful morning walk, I saw a dead cat in front of my house... right in front of my house. A few crows were flying over it, chewing and nibbling at the cat... well, dead cat. The head and body were flatten until I can't tll which was which. Only its 4 legs were left 'undisturbed'. Surprisingly, there wasn't a lot of blood, but there were a lot of flesh!
On th same day, in th evening when I was walking along Gurney Drive with AiChing in our quest for a fitter body (which I failed to achieve despite so many months of 'effort'), we came across a dead dolphin. It was right opposite of Gurney Plaza, lying there motionless on the beach. 3 boys climbed down and got a really close look at it. The moment one of them suggsted touching it, all of them got disgusted at the thought of it and left. The tongue was sticking out, and its intestines were all over the place around the body. There was a long stick, wood I think, that pierced its stomach right above the hole where all the intestines came out from. Now there was a lot of blood. And it stinks like hell!
The creepy thing was, 5 minutes before me and AiChing reached the place where the dead dolphine was at, we saw a tree full of crows. And they are known as relatives of death. 5 minutes later we saw the dead dolphin.
Yesterday morning, when Parvin and I wer walking to the corner shop near my place to get breakfast before we attend a study workshop, we saw a dead rat. It is quite common in my area, as there are abundance of rats there. But it was quite disgusting. Not much blood, but lots of flesh again.
Death could be creepy... and when you saw what happens to these dead animals, you could imagine how tragic it was. But in th end, death is not so scary afterall.. cos I know, I will be at a better place. Much better :)
Hope I didn't spoil your apetite.
9.1.06
Wish U weRe tHere.
I am sure each and every of us had had experiences where we wished someone was there to share them with us. These are the moments you realised that there are so many beautiful things or creations in this world that are worth cherishing. These are the moments you realised that life is beautiful because you have loved.
Here are some of those 'moments' that I can remember:
1. Watching the sunset (it was only the sun and th horizon of th sea, no clouds, no island, no hills to block the sun) in PD trip with Lian, Mike, Chok Wei, Cindy, Alyssa, Goik, Kim Tat
2. Admiring the uncountable number or stars on the clear, black, velvet sky at the IPG CF BBG at Marina Bay. This was the first time in my 21 years of life to see so many stars.
3. Witnessing the formation of an whole, complete arch of rainbow right in front of me outside of McD's Sunrise. This was th first time in my life to see a whole arch of rainbow, so huge, and clear, each and every colour...
4. Feeling the soft cool breeze through my fingers early in the morning an Gurney Drive beside one of the trees, standing on one of the rocks...with my eyes closed.
5. Watching fireworks when there was some celebration.
6. Tasting the smooth, sweet, delicious chocolate, chocolate or cheese cake...or sushi...or ice-cream. Savouring evrery bit of the moment.
7. Laughing earnestly, laughing my lungs out at a really stupid joke when hanging out with friends or when watching a movie.
8. Walking along the beach, walking along a street, walking anywhere...alone. Wishing you were there to enjoy the walk...or sweat ;P
9. Playing in the rain and going nuts in it.
10. Looking out the window at the things that pass by when I am sitting in someone else's car, on the way to somewhere for something.
Wish u were there....
Here are some of those 'moments' that I can remember:
1. Watching the sunset (it was only the sun and th horizon of th sea, no clouds, no island, no hills to block the sun) in PD trip with Lian, Mike, Chok Wei, Cindy, Alyssa, Goik, Kim Tat
2. Admiring the uncountable number or stars on the clear, black, velvet sky at the IPG CF BBG at Marina Bay. This was the first time in my 21 years of life to see so many stars.
3. Witnessing the formation of an whole, complete arch of rainbow right in front of me outside of McD's Sunrise. This was th first time in my life to see a whole arch of rainbow, so huge, and clear, each and every colour...
4. Feeling the soft cool breeze through my fingers early in the morning an Gurney Drive beside one of the trees, standing on one of the rocks...with my eyes closed.
5. Watching fireworks when there was some celebration.
6. Tasting the smooth, sweet, delicious chocolate, chocolate or cheese cake...or sushi...or ice-cream. Savouring evrery bit of the moment.
7. Laughing earnestly, laughing my lungs out at a really stupid joke when hanging out with friends or when watching a movie.
8. Walking along the beach, walking along a street, walking anywhere...alone. Wishing you were there to enjoy the walk...or sweat ;P
9. Playing in the rain and going nuts in it.
10. Looking out the window at the things that pass by when I am sitting in someone else's car, on the way to somewhere for something.
Wish u were there....
5.1.06
Chocoholic's Must Watch's
Last year was an amazing year for the film industry for Miss Chocoholic with great movies like Constant Gardener, Harry Potter 4, Zorro 2, Chicken Little, etc.
2006 is another year full of excitement for Miss Chocoholic, who anticipates to watch these movies... I can't wait!!
Here's Chocoholic's-Can't-Wait-To-Watch-Movies:
movies from last year which I'd love to watch
Cheaper By Dozen 2
Family Stone
Brokeback Mountain
Casanova
From 2006(first half)
Oliver Twist
Fearless
Munich
Ice Age 2
North Country
Nanny McPhee
The Inside Man
She's the Man
Freedomland
X-Men 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Underworld 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A Good Woman
Manderlay
Ultraviolet
A Scanner Darkly
Transamerica
Anybody want to join me?
2006 is another year full of excitement for Miss Chocoholic, who anticipates to watch these movies... I can't wait!!
Here's Chocoholic's-Can't-Wait-To-Watch-Movies:
movies from last year which I'd love to watch
Cheaper By Dozen 2
Family Stone
Brokeback Mountain
Casanova
From 2006(first half)
Oliver Twist
Fearless
Munich
Ice Age 2
North Country
Nanny McPhee
The Inside Man
She's the Man
Freedomland
X-Men 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Underworld 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A Good Woman
Manderlay
Ultraviolet
A Scanner Darkly
Transamerica
Anybody want to join me?
Heart Broken but Pocket Saved
Arrghhh!!!! Sob sob... I went back to the shop in Gurney Plaza yesterday and the dress is gone!! Arrghhh!!!!
Somebody lucky got the dress d...sob sob. The pain in my heart is like a heavy stone landed on it, scattered..no, more like smashed into pulp. It was the most beautiful dress I have ever seen in my life!
Ok, that's it. I am not getting any new year clothes this year!
I don't regret not getting the dress. Well, at least I saved RM 189.00 ;)
Somebody lucky got the dress d...sob sob. The pain in my heart is like a heavy stone landed on it, scattered..no, more like smashed into pulp. It was the most beautiful dress I have ever seen in my life!
Ok, that's it. I am not getting any new year clothes this year!
I don't regret not getting the dress. Well, at least I saved RM 189.00 ;)
30.12.05
Shopping dilemma episode 2.
What a coincidence! When I thought of this post I didn't know I actually started my chocoholic blog with the same subject... SHOPPING.
In Episode 1, Miss Chocoholic faces dilemma in deciding what gift to buy for a friend's birthday and it made her plunged into desperation of finding a solution to this matter that had been troubling her for so long. She found the solution! Can she apply it to buying, well...not gifts this time, clothes... for herself?
Now, in Episode 2, Miss Chocoholic is again faced with a dilemma in deciding what clothes to buy for new year, and again, the history repeats itself...she's plunged into desperation of finding a right balance between her scarce financial resources and her love for several pieces of fashion breakthrough.
As she went window shopping with two of her pals in Gurney Plaza, concluding to herself that she will not get any new year clothes for 2006 because her pocket's sinking at the rate of 6,000 mph and she has many relatively new clothes which she can wear for new year, she came across creations so wonderful and beautiful that she found hard to resist.
So, she has changed her mind now and ditched her 'not-buying-any-clothes' idea and replaced it with 'maybe-I'll-just-get-a few'. (talk about failure of self-control!)
In her list now there are Baleno 3 quarter pants at RM89.90, PDI 3 quarter pants at RM79.00, this beautiful red floral multifunction dress at RM 189.00 (ahh..Miss Chocoholic faints *thud*), FOS 3 quarter pants at RM 53.90, FOS tee written "Two bfs are better than one" at the front / "Too cool for school" at RM 30.00 (rounded up figure) and a spagheti top at FOS at RM 19.90.
Oh, how desperate Miss Chocoholic is now!
After much pondering and head-cracking mental gymnastics exercises, Miss Chocoholic.... is left without a solution. Instead, as she always did, she has now concluded that since it is so difficult to come to a decision on what to buy with her meagre funds, simply don't buy any! Problem solved! Yeah!!
This could be a new economic formula ;)
Happy 2006!!
Oh yeah, by the way, purple is the "in" colour now. So dig up all your purple stuff and wear them...or use them!!
In Episode 1, Miss Chocoholic faces dilemma in deciding what gift to buy for a friend's birthday and it made her plunged into desperation of finding a solution to this matter that had been troubling her for so long. She found the solution! Can she apply it to buying, well...not gifts this time, clothes... for herself?
Now, in Episode 2, Miss Chocoholic is again faced with a dilemma in deciding what clothes to buy for new year, and again, the history repeats itself...she's plunged into desperation of finding a right balance between her scarce financial resources and her love for several pieces of fashion breakthrough.
As she went window shopping with two of her pals in Gurney Plaza, concluding to herself that she will not get any new year clothes for 2006 because her pocket's sinking at the rate of 6,000 mph and she has many relatively new clothes which she can wear for new year, she came across creations so wonderful and beautiful that she found hard to resist.
So, she has changed her mind now and ditched her 'not-buying-any-clothes' idea and replaced it with 'maybe-I'll-just-get-a few'. (talk about failure of self-control!)
In her list now there are Baleno 3 quarter pants at RM89.90, PDI 3 quarter pants at RM79.00, this beautiful red floral multifunction dress at RM 189.00 (ahh..Miss Chocoholic faints *thud*), FOS 3 quarter pants at RM 53.90, FOS tee written "Two bfs are better than one" at the front / "Too cool for school" at RM 30.00 (rounded up figure) and a spagheti top at FOS at RM 19.90.
Oh, how desperate Miss Chocoholic is now!
After much pondering and head-cracking mental gymnastics exercises, Miss Chocoholic.... is left without a solution. Instead, as she always did, she has now concluded that since it is so difficult to come to a decision on what to buy with her meagre funds, simply don't buy any! Problem solved! Yeah!!
This could be a new economic formula ;)
Happy 2006!!
Oh yeah, by the way, purple is the "in" colour now. So dig up all your purple stuff and wear them...or use them!!
28.12.05
Thoughtful Lil' Friend.
It is nice to know that in this sad sad world, in this dull dull life, there is still people around me that is so thoughtful.
When I was reading the TIME magazine in th library, trying very hard to find at least one example of current events which I can use as an example in my Jurisprudence assignment (but found none), Alex Wong a.k.a. Chung Heng ( I think that is how his named is spelled, Alex sorry if I'm wrong!), approached me and asked how I was doing. He then wished me Merry Christmas and said sorry for not sending me a Christmas e-card, but only managed to give me a testimonial on friendster which I regrettably deleted. I could only say thank you to him for the testimonial. Oh, I felt sooooooooooooo darn BAD!!
He actually took the courage to approach me and apologized for something which does not require apology?!
It was so thoughtful of him. Many students find him weird and bullied him in college, he still tried his best to make friends and share his thoughts and happennings in life with me, and other people in IPG.
Although it was 2 days after Christmas, I considered this a Christmas gift that I truly appreciate :)
When I was reading the TIME magazine in th library, trying very hard to find at least one example of current events which I can use as an example in my Jurisprudence assignment (but found none), Alex Wong a.k.a. Chung Heng ( I think that is how his named is spelled, Alex sorry if I'm wrong!), approached me and asked how I was doing. He then wished me Merry Christmas and said sorry for not sending me a Christmas e-card, but only managed to give me a testimonial on friendster which I regrettably deleted. I could only say thank you to him for the testimonial. Oh, I felt sooooooooooooo darn BAD!!
He actually took the courage to approach me and apologized for something which does not require apology?!
It was so thoughtful of him. Many students find him weird and bullied him in college, he still tried his best to make friends and share his thoughts and happennings in life with me, and other people in IPG.
Although it was 2 days after Christmas, I considered this a Christmas gift that I truly appreciate :)
19.12.05
Eaten alive
IPG Cafeteria, which is so pathetic that it is actually nothing like a cafeteria, is the citadel for blood-suckers. Yeah, and I mean it literally blood-suckers!
As I was enjoying my breakfast this morning, cherishing every bite of the nasi goreng and savoruing every bit of the telur mata kerbau, I was attacked by a full-blown offensive launched by these blood-suckers. It was as though they were on Operation Desert Storm!
Only ten minutes...these blood-suckers made me dance, scratch and cry like a baby whose mother refused to give her the candy she wants. Unfortunately, nobody came to rescue me from this attack.
I was defeated. I was eaten alive by these blood-suckers.
Their victory is evident on my limbs. And my defeat will remind forever more that I hate.... mosquitoes!!
Blood-suckers!! 24 bites and the lumps are even in a pattern...hmmm, looks like a big J on my calve. Gtg...time to scratch!
As I was enjoying my breakfast this morning, cherishing every bite of the nasi goreng and savoruing every bit of the telur mata kerbau, I was attacked by a full-blown offensive launched by these blood-suckers. It was as though they were on Operation Desert Storm!
Only ten minutes...these blood-suckers made me dance, scratch and cry like a baby whose mother refused to give her the candy she wants. Unfortunately, nobody came to rescue me from this attack.
I was defeated. I was eaten alive by these blood-suckers.
Their victory is evident on my limbs. And my defeat will remind forever more that I hate.... mosquitoes!!
Blood-suckers!! 24 bites and the lumps are even in a pattern...hmmm, looks like a big J on my calve. Gtg...time to scratch!
2.12.05
Biscuiteer.
Usually, when a beggar holds out his or her hand to beg, the beggar will get pecuniary donations (actually, some people don't donate. They give them just a few pennies to rid off the irritating beggar) or fiery donations (this happens when they either get shoo-ed off or rude remarks from people who don't give them anything).
But something funny and rather unusual happened two days ago.
When I was sitting comfortably on the bus heading back to my hometown waiting for the bus to start the journey, a beggar came on the bus and held out a crumpled paper cup to each of the passenger on the bus, speaking softly with the pitiful tone in his voice, asking us to give him some money and have pity on him.
Seriously, why should we pity them if they do not have pity on themselves?
But this was not what I thought of lar of course!
When he held out the cup to me and looked at me, I just stared back. I know it's rude but... I can't help wondering what's really going on in his mind!
So, I was thinking, I have a 5 dollar note and a few 1 dollar notes in my pocket, but I was wearing a really tight jeans (yeah, I put on weight, arrghh!!) and it would be so difficult to get the 1 dollar note out of my pocket with all the bags on my lap.
I just kept staring into his eyes...
And then...
I stretched my hand into one of the bags on my lap and searched hard for a packet... while I was doing this the beggar thought I won't give him anything and turned to the passenger behind me to beg for money.
Just as he turned.. I held out my hand to him, saying :"Nah, hor lu (give you in hokkien)."
He turned back and looked stunned!
I was holding out a Tiger biscuit to him :P
I thought he needed food maore than money at that time. Haha. Well, what happened next? He hesitated at first, but I continued holding out the biscuit to him and he took it eventually. When he left the bus, I saw him holding that piece of Tiger biscuit :)
The passenger next to me laughed at me. Oh well...who cares? I became a biscuit volunteer...biscuiteer lim sin yee hahaha.
But something funny and rather unusual happened two days ago.
When I was sitting comfortably on the bus heading back to my hometown waiting for the bus to start the journey, a beggar came on the bus and held out a crumpled paper cup to each of the passenger on the bus, speaking softly with the pitiful tone in his voice, asking us to give him some money and have pity on him.
Seriously, why should we pity them if they do not have pity on themselves?
But this was not what I thought of lar of course!
When he held out the cup to me and looked at me, I just stared back. I know it's rude but... I can't help wondering what's really going on in his mind!
So, I was thinking, I have a 5 dollar note and a few 1 dollar notes in my pocket, but I was wearing a really tight jeans (yeah, I put on weight, arrghh!!) and it would be so difficult to get the 1 dollar note out of my pocket with all the bags on my lap.
I just kept staring into his eyes...
And then...
I stretched my hand into one of the bags on my lap and searched hard for a packet... while I was doing this the beggar thought I won't give him anything and turned to the passenger behind me to beg for money.
Just as he turned.. I held out my hand to him, saying :"Nah, hor lu (give you in hokkien)."
He turned back and looked stunned!
I was holding out a Tiger biscuit to him :P
I thought he needed food maore than money at that time. Haha. Well, what happened next? He hesitated at first, but I continued holding out the biscuit to him and he took it eventually. When he left the bus, I saw him holding that piece of Tiger biscuit :)
The passenger next to me laughed at me. Oh well...who cares? I became a biscuit volunteer...biscuiteer lim sin yee hahaha.
25.11.05
Fiery enough.
Yesterday night, I watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire for the second time.
And I still like it :)
To me it was better than the last 3 Harry Potters. The action part was good (especially the dragon part), romance..hmm, very little but I don't mind, comedy...yes, way funnier than the old Harry Potters.
So I am giving 5 thumbs up to this Harry Potter movie. I am sooooo looking forward to the next episode (but I doubt that there is going to be one).
Oh...10 thumbs up to hot bods of Harry n Ron too!! *drool*
And I still like it :)
To me it was better than the last 3 Harry Potters. The action part was good (especially the dragon part), romance..hmm, very little but I don't mind, comedy...yes, way funnier than the old Harry Potters.
So I am giving 5 thumbs up to this Harry Potter movie. I am sooooo looking forward to the next episode (but I doubt that there is going to be one).
Oh...10 thumbs up to hot bods of Harry n Ron too!! *drool*
23.11.05
Malaysia's Trademark Scary Ppl
The bus ticket sellers at the Butterworth jetty are suppose to sell tickets... not scare people!
They are so annoying. They will ask every single person they see at the station "Pergi mana? KL? Ipoh? KL?"... "Ah Moi, mau pergi mane?"... "Lai, KL, Ipoh?Alor Setar?"... Once a guy even asked me " Ki to lok (where to in hokkien), An Soon ah?" Hello?? Do I have a line written on my forehead saying that I'm from An Soon??
Worse still, some of them think that people around them are deft! They don't ask us where do we want to go... they scream at us! If you shook your head after they bombarded you with one or two questions on your destination, they will bombard you with extra free questions.. and they are still regarding your destination. Get a grip!! I shook my head and said No already! Now leave me alone!
So I observed how all these ticket sellers approach each an every single person whether they are standing, sitting on the bench or brisk walking to catch their bus. They are so annoying that people just ignore them. I bet if they just sat at their ticket counters and attend to customers who came to the counter, they would have gotten more business... and scared less people.
Maybe having to stay at the filthy bus station does things to you... it makes you go nuts perhaps.
But these scary bus ticket sellers have no right to turn us ordinary people into nuts like them too.
They are so annoying. They will ask every single person they see at the station "Pergi mana? KL? Ipoh? KL?"... "Ah Moi, mau pergi mane?"... "Lai, KL, Ipoh?Alor Setar?"... Once a guy even asked me " Ki to lok (where to in hokkien), An Soon ah?" Hello?? Do I have a line written on my forehead saying that I'm from An Soon??
Worse still, some of them think that people around them are deft! They don't ask us where do we want to go... they scream at us! If you shook your head after they bombarded you with one or two questions on your destination, they will bombard you with extra free questions.. and they are still regarding your destination. Get a grip!! I shook my head and said No already! Now leave me alone!
So I observed how all these ticket sellers approach each an every single person whether they are standing, sitting on the bench or brisk walking to catch their bus. They are so annoying that people just ignore them. I bet if they just sat at their ticket counters and attend to customers who came to the counter, they would have gotten more business... and scared less people.
Maybe having to stay at the filthy bus station does things to you... it makes you go nuts perhaps.
But these scary bus ticket sellers have no right to turn us ordinary people into nuts like them too.
10.11.05
Motion of Love.
Motion of Love sounds like a song title, or novel title to many...even to you I suppose? :)
Five motions of love I gave to others:
1. Smile - a smile can save a life, and it makes you feel your presence is appreciated.
2. Hug - it keeps one warm and very very secured :)
3. Offer chocolates - sorry it has to be chocolates, blame me for being a chocoholic.
4. A phone call - talking on the phone with my loved ones keeps me close to them.
5. Pray - yes, I do pray for them. I'm not Jesus who can perform miracles like building a chocolate factory in a second, so this is the best I can give.
When you love somebody, what do you do to show that you love him or her? Think about it. And I hope you will realise that there have been people showing their love for you too but you might have been too ignorant or blinded to see that. Be more sensitive to your surroundings and observant, you will be asking yourself :"How could I be so blind all this while?"..ok, you don't need to bash your head for this, cos I still love your head :P
The love that I am talking about is not the BGR love or sexual love that many have turned to today... but a type of love more certain and special... that you can show to your friends, family, bf/gf, spouse, your classmate, roommate, or even a stranger on the streets. This love from above kept me going, cos life is all about love. I've seen it... have you?
p/s: Please forgive me for being all lovey-dovey today... it must be all the chocolates I consumed non-stop for the past two weeks.
Five motions of love I gave to others:
1. Smile - a smile can save a life, and it makes you feel your presence is appreciated.
2. Hug - it keeps one warm and very very secured :)
3. Offer chocolates - sorry it has to be chocolates, blame me for being a chocoholic.
4. A phone call - talking on the phone with my loved ones keeps me close to them.
5. Pray - yes, I do pray for them. I'm not Jesus who can perform miracles like building a chocolate factory in a second, so this is the best I can give.
When you love somebody, what do you do to show that you love him or her? Think about it. And I hope you will realise that there have been people showing their love for you too but you might have been too ignorant or blinded to see that. Be more sensitive to your surroundings and observant, you will be asking yourself :"How could I be so blind all this while?"..ok, you don't need to bash your head for this, cos I still love your head :P
The love that I am talking about is not the BGR love or sexual love that many have turned to today... but a type of love more certain and special... that you can show to your friends, family, bf/gf, spouse, your classmate, roommate, or even a stranger on the streets. This love from above kept me going, cos life is all about love. I've seen it... have you?
p/s: Please forgive me for being all lovey-dovey today... it must be all the chocolates I consumed non-stop for the past two weeks.
5.11.05
31.10.05
Biorè Pore Pack Show.
I'm going to Langkawi for vacation tonight at midnight :) Actually, it's more like an eloping plan than a vacation, haha.
So, I applied one Biorè Pore Pack strip on my seemingly-flat-as-iron-board nose in the morning. I thought I will have 10 minutes of private time at home where I don't have to go out so nobody can see my funny looking face with a white piece of nonsense plastered to my nose....and then...
"Yee (what my 3 years-old cousin calls me at home) ...duayi (first aunt in hokkien, who is my mom) is calling you to come out to the mobile pasar!"
Oh crap!! The mobile pasar is parked opposite my house, and I could see all the neighbour aunties standing around it picking and choosing vegetables and fishes. Do I really have to go out now??
The thought of making my mother wait for me makes me sick, and it was going to rain soon. So, I gathered all the courage I needed, inhaled deeply, and step out of my house and made my way to the mini lorry parked just opposite my house.
For the first time in my hometown, I felt like a star... every pair of eyes were staring at me! But only they were not looking at me like I'm a star...but some fool with some funny white piece of crap on her nose, looking really really silly.
My 3 year-old cousin asked with her innoent face :"Yee, what happened to your nose?"
Even the mobile pasar owner looked at me strangely... and my mother giggled.
Oh, I swear I wanted to die on the spot!! I wished I could bury my head in the groud like an ostrich or turn invisle like the Hollow Man.
I just smiled and said:"Oh, I stick somthing on my nose, that's all."
After my mother asked me whether I wanted to get some tau-sa-piah for my friends who are going to Langkawi...correction, eloping to Langkawi to night, to which I replied "No need la.", I walked steadily back into my house and laughed at myself.
So much embarassment could occur in just 5 short minutes.
So, I applied one Biorè Pore Pack strip on my seemingly-flat-as-iron-board nose in the morning. I thought I will have 10 minutes of private time at home where I don't have to go out so nobody can see my funny looking face with a white piece of nonsense plastered to my nose....and then...
"Yee (what my 3 years-old cousin calls me at home) ...duayi (first aunt in hokkien, who is my mom) is calling you to come out to the mobile pasar!"
Oh crap!! The mobile pasar is parked opposite my house, and I could see all the neighbour aunties standing around it picking and choosing vegetables and fishes. Do I really have to go out now??
The thought of making my mother wait for me makes me sick, and it was going to rain soon. So, I gathered all the courage I needed, inhaled deeply, and step out of my house and made my way to the mini lorry parked just opposite my house.
For the first time in my hometown, I felt like a star... every pair of eyes were staring at me! But only they were not looking at me like I'm a star...but some fool with some funny white piece of crap on her nose, looking really really silly.
My 3 year-old cousin asked with her innoent face :"Yee, what happened to your nose?"
Even the mobile pasar owner looked at me strangely... and my mother giggled.
Oh, I swear I wanted to die on the spot!! I wished I could bury my head in the groud like an ostrich or turn invisle like the Hollow Man.
I just smiled and said:"Oh, I stick somthing on my nose, that's all."
After my mother asked me whether I wanted to get some tau-sa-piah for my friends who are going to Langkawi...correction, eloping to Langkawi to night, to which I replied "No need la.", I walked steadily back into my house and laughed at myself.
So much embarassment could occur in just 5 short minutes.
30.10.05
Chocolate vs Sex
Judges : Lord Cadbury LC, Lord Lindts, Lord Hersheys, Lord Guylians and Lord Sneakers MR.
Case title : Ferero Roche v. Kinder Bueno (2005) HoL AER 5 448
Facts: On 15th July, 2005, the appellant and respondent were having a double chocolate milk shake at Chocolate Lover's, Cocoa Street, Confectionary District, when the disputed issue arose. The respondent allegedly claimed that there's nothing that can replace the ever sinful SEX in this world today. The applicant, being a chocolate addict, disagreed with the respondent. Both parties ended up in an unsweetened fudge fight, and the dispute was brought to court.
Held:
Their Lordships held unanimously that:
Chocolate is better than sex.
Their ratio decidendi were:
Case title : Ferero Roche v. Kinder Bueno (2005) HoL AER 5 448
Facts: On 15th July, 2005, the appellant and respondent were having a double chocolate milk shake at Chocolate Lover's, Cocoa Street, Confectionary District, when the disputed issue arose. The respondent allegedly claimed that there's nothing that can replace the ever sinful SEX in this world today. The applicant, being a chocolate addict, disagreed with the respondent. Both parties ended up in an unsweetened fudge fight, and the dispute was brought to court.
Held:
Their Lordships held unanimously that:
Chocolate is better than sex.
Their ratio decidendi were:
- You can GET chocolate.
- "If you love me, you'll swallow" has real meaning with chocolate.
- Chocolate satisfies, even when it's gone soft.
- You can safely have chocolate while driving.
- You can make chocolate last as long as you want it to.
- You can have chocolate in front of your mother.
- If you bite the nuts too hard chocolate doesn't mind.
- Two people of the same sex can have chocolate without being called nasty names.
- The word "commitment" doesn't scare chocolate.
- You can have chocolate on top of your workbench/desk during working hours without upsetting your work mates.
- You can ask a stranger for chocolate without getting your face slapped.
- You don't get hairs in your mouth with chocolate.
- With chocolate there's never any need to fake it.
- Chocolate doesn't make you pregnant.
- You can have chocolate at any time of the month.
- Good chocolate is easy to find.
- You can have as many kinds of chocolate as you can handle.
- You are never too young or too old for chocolate.
- When you have chocolate late at night it doesn't keep your neighbors awake.
- With chocolate, size doesn't matter and it's always great.
Chocolate rules!!! hehe
Violation of Chocolates' Rights!
Yes, I am addicted to chocolates. It's a substance I can't live without. I totally LOVE chocolates!
I was devastated to come across this website and found out that chocolates are not as simple as it seems. In fact, if chocolates were made a living thing, its rights would have been violated and justified a suit against people who disregarded its welfare :P
Sounds silly, I know :) I can't believe it myself either. There is such a thing as the EU's Chocolate Dispute. I find it ridiculous even as a law student...and a chocoholic.
Check it out : http://www.american.edu/projects/mandala/TED/chocolat.htm
If you care about chocolates like me.
I was devastated to come across this website and found out that chocolates are not as simple as it seems. In fact, if chocolates were made a living thing, its rights would have been violated and justified a suit against people who disregarded its welfare :P
Sounds silly, I know :) I can't believe it myself either. There is such a thing as the EU's Chocolate Dispute. I find it ridiculous even as a law student...and a chocoholic.
Check it out : http://www.american.edu/projects/mandala/TED/chocolat.htm
If you care about chocolates like me.
27.10.05
Best Breakfast.
Thank you God for blessing me with so many wonderful friends who are reminders of your presence with me... otherwise, I would not have received this e-mail from Rebecca. And Rebecca, I do want you to know... I LOVE YOU.
You might be wondering what's the connection between this and breakfast, which we normally regard as the first meal (food) that goes into our stomach. But this morning, the first e-mail I read served as the best breakfast to my soul, spirit, heart and mind for me today. You should check it out ;)
This is a conversation between God and a man on the telephone. (my favourites are in italic)
God : Hello. Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No.. who is this?
God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?
God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to)Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside,you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt, more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God : Always look at how far you have come, rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God : When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.
God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start with a new sense of inspiration.
God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve.
Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
You might be wondering what's the connection between this and breakfast, which we normally regard as the first meal (food) that goes into our stomach. But this morning, the first e-mail I read served as the best breakfast to my soul, spirit, heart and mind for me today. You should check it out ;)
This is a conversation between God and a man on the telephone. (my favourites are in italic)
God : Hello. Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No.. who is this?
God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?
God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to)Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside,you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt, more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God : Always look at how far you have come, rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God : When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.
God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start with a new sense of inspiration.
God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve.
Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
20.10.05
Queen of procrasti-Nation.
Yes, that is my nation....procrasti-nation :P
I'm an expert when in comes to procrastination.
One morning a few days ago, I came to the college library with the supposedly settled intention to revise Chapters 2 to 5 of Law of Succession. After 4 hours, I was still stuck at the Introduction :P
When I read a few lines, I lifted my head and saw a free available PC in the library!! Yeah, online time.... tap tap tap....cursing the slow connection...tap tap tap...click click click.... ok, done! Ow...tummy ache, must go toilet...dash out of library, went to ladies.
Then I returned to the library to continue on Law of Succession. I sat down, skimmed the notes, read 3 lines...mouth feeling itchy!! Got up, went to the canteen and munched on a packet of guava and a packet or watermelon. When I finished, it was time to attend class. There goes my plan to finish up revision for Chapters 2 to 5 of Law of succesion.
Still not enough? Hehe, my handphone credit was RM 0.00 a week ago. On:
Day 1-Ok, I will reload my phone tomorrow before going to college.
Day 2-Spent too much yesterday, want to save money. Nvm, I'll reload tomorrow.
Day 3-Arrghh!! I can't sms friends and this sucks!! Ok, later I will ask Sri Raam whether he can transfer credit to me...Damn! Sri Raam's credit expired!! That means I'm not meant to reload today. Fine, I'll do it tomorrow.
Day 4-Woke up and thought of going to 7 Eleven later to reload phone... 11pm as I was lying on my bed "Oh s***! Too busy til I forgot to reload!!" Ok, I'll do it tomorrow. Until now, my credit is till at RM 0.00.
Day 5- Can't call mom!! Ok, I have to reload tomorrow.
Day 6-Still RM 0.00! Can't reply TY's sms! Oh...but I'm so so so lazy to walk....
Day 7-Reloaded RM 30.00!!! Yeah!
See what I mean? Yes, I am the Queen of Procrasti-Nation.
And last night, I was reading Law of Succession (yeah, it's my second attempt!)...one page....Hey, what can I write about in my blog tomorrow??....maybe about mosquitoes (cos I was bitten 15 times in 30 minutes while having breakfast in the canteen in IPG), hmmm...maybe procratination (Me n Aiching just talked about it). OK!
Then, I remembered that my friends will have exams soon. So I made cards for them, but the attempt failed miserably. So no Good Luck cards for them. Aiks?? The poster on my wall fell...ok, stick it back to the wall. Sat down again...look at notes.... time to sleep zzzzz.
I'm an expert when in comes to procrastination.
One morning a few days ago, I came to the college library with the supposedly settled intention to revise Chapters 2 to 5 of Law of Succession. After 4 hours, I was still stuck at the Introduction :P
When I read a few lines, I lifted my head and saw a free available PC in the library!! Yeah, online time.... tap tap tap....cursing the slow connection...tap tap tap...click click click.... ok, done! Ow...tummy ache, must go toilet...dash out of library, went to ladies.
Then I returned to the library to continue on Law of Succession. I sat down, skimmed the notes, read 3 lines...mouth feeling itchy!! Got up, went to the canteen and munched on a packet of guava and a packet or watermelon. When I finished, it was time to attend class. There goes my plan to finish up revision for Chapters 2 to 5 of Law of succesion.
Still not enough? Hehe, my handphone credit was RM 0.00 a week ago. On:
Day 1-Ok, I will reload my phone tomorrow before going to college.
Day 2-Spent too much yesterday, want to save money. Nvm, I'll reload tomorrow.
Day 3-Arrghh!! I can't sms friends and this sucks!! Ok, later I will ask Sri Raam whether he can transfer credit to me...Damn! Sri Raam's credit expired!! That means I'm not meant to reload today. Fine, I'll do it tomorrow.
Day 4-Woke up and thought of going to 7 Eleven later to reload phone... 11pm as I was lying on my bed "Oh s***! Too busy til I forgot to reload!!" Ok, I'll do it tomorrow. Until now, my credit is till at RM 0.00.
Day 5- Can't call mom!! Ok, I have to reload tomorrow.
Day 6-Still RM 0.00! Can't reply TY's sms! Oh...but I'm so so so lazy to walk....
Day 7-Reloaded RM 30.00!!! Yeah!
See what I mean? Yes, I am the Queen of Procrasti-Nation.
And last night, I was reading Law of Succession (yeah, it's my second attempt!)...one page....Hey, what can I write about in my blog tomorrow??....maybe about mosquitoes (cos I was bitten 15 times in 30 minutes while having breakfast in the canteen in IPG), hmmm...maybe procratination (Me n Aiching just talked about it). OK!
Then, I remembered that my friends will have exams soon. So I made cards for them, but the attempt failed miserably. So no Good Luck cards for them. Aiks?? The poster on my wall fell...ok, stick it back to the wall. Sat down again...look at notes.... time to sleep zzzzz.
14.10.05
Current Craze.
My current favourite website:
http://travisfimmel.homestead.com/one.html
I'm so nuts...when it comes to him.
Thank you God for such a beautiful creation :P I love you God.
13.10.05
The Reason.
I almost typed the 'Raisin' for the title of this posting :P My craving for food is irrescuable.
Anyway, what I'm sharing today happened last night before I go to bed. My phone ran out of credit. Yes, it was RM 0.00 the last time I checked, and it still is RM 0.00 now. My lazy-fat-heavy bum just wouldn't move to get a reload card at the nearest mobile phone shop or 7 Eleven which is only 3 to 5 minutes walk from my place.
I prayed to God that TY will call me now... Amen. Ring ring. My phone rang few seconds later. God is so great. But it was not the phone call that made me love God more, it was something else...
After chatting with TY, I gave thanks for the phone call and smiled while I closed my eyes, preparing to enter my dreamland where I could probably walk on the sea or marry Travis Fimmel.
Then, it happened suddenly. I realised this most amazing thing..
I accepted Christ just 2 weeks ago. It happened for a reason. The reason was because God loves me. God anwered my prayer last night for a reason. The reason was because God wants me to realise that my loved ones i.e. TY, my family and my friends, will be saved.
That was why I am a believer. That was why I was placed around them. That was why.... So that God can put His plans into work.
Praise the Lord.
Anyway, what I'm sharing today happened last night before I go to bed. My phone ran out of credit. Yes, it was RM 0.00 the last time I checked, and it still is RM 0.00 now. My lazy-fat-heavy bum just wouldn't move to get a reload card at the nearest mobile phone shop or 7 Eleven which is only 3 to 5 minutes walk from my place.
I prayed to God that TY will call me now... Amen. Ring ring. My phone rang few seconds later. God is so great. But it was not the phone call that made me love God more, it was something else...
After chatting with TY, I gave thanks for the phone call and smiled while I closed my eyes, preparing to enter my dreamland where I could probably walk on the sea or marry Travis Fimmel.
Then, it happened suddenly. I realised this most amazing thing..
I accepted Christ just 2 weeks ago. It happened for a reason. The reason was because God loves me. God anwered my prayer last night for a reason. The reason was because God wants me to realise that my loved ones i.e. TY, my family and my friends, will be saved.
That was why I am a believer. That was why I was placed around them. That was why.... So that God can put His plans into work.
Praise the Lord.
11.10.05
Ten Ten.
10th of october...a special date it is!! And it is a special day for me too. Know why? There are many reasons. I'm just gonna tell you 5 :
1. I made it to college without getting wet in the rain and managed to crossed the roads safely (ya know how difficult it is to cross a road in Penang!)
2. God answered my prayer! It's another day of feeling God's presence in me and that inexplicable feeling of being loved and joy infinitely above that which I felt with TY (sorry, but I still love u *muacks*).
3. I woke up thinking about Travis Fimmel...drool....awwwwww....what a great way to start a day!
4. Still have the wonderful song by 3 Doors Down in my head ..... everything i have in this world, all that i'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as i have u right here by me. sob sob :')
5. More yummy food ...yum yum :P
1. I made it to college without getting wet in the rain and managed to crossed the roads safely (ya know how difficult it is to cross a road in Penang!)
2. God answered my prayer! It's another day of feeling God's presence in me and that inexplicable feeling of being loved and joy infinitely above that which I felt with TY (sorry, but I still love u *muacks*).
3. I woke up thinking about Travis Fimmel...drool....awwwwww....what a great way to start a day!
4. Still have the wonderful song by 3 Doors Down in my head ..... everything i have in this world, all that i'll ever be, it could all fall down around me, just as long as i have u right here by me. sob sob :')
5. More yummy food ...yum yum :P
6.10.05
I Love It, when...
I love it
when you pull me
close to you
so i can bury my head
in your warm chest
when you hold me close
smelling my hair
while i listen
to your strong, steady heartbeat.
I love it
when you have that distant look
as it'll make me ask
Are you ok?
Is everything all right?
then you'll hold my hands
look at me
so convincingly
and say
Everything's fine.
I love it
when you see me sad
because you'll make a joke
because it makes me laugh
but
i feel even more joy
when the laughter is yours
when i see
your amazing smile
because I told a joke
because it made you laugh.
And I love it
when the moment is perfect
for the words
to be spoken
for me to say
I love you.
the shine in your eyes
the warm smile on your face
already said to me
what i needed to hear
what i know you'll say
with the tender look
even before you say
I love you too.
Darn, guess some people are not born to be a poet. And I'm pretty sure I'm one of them :)
2.10.05
Zero Comprehensiveness.
I have to agree with one of my classmates that English law and judges are impossible to understand. Don't know what I mean?
Try reading just one 2-page judgment (yes, only a 2-page one will do!) from any English law reports OR check out my friend's post here (www.sleepypurpleworld.blogspot.com/2005/09/english-judges.html).
And in addition to her theories, I would like to add another theory:
5) They can't even come up with proper names. We came across judges with names like "Cockburn", "Cross" and "Upjohn". I will not be surprise if in the future there's a judge called "Assburn","Tick" or "Downjack".
Try reading just one 2-page judgment (yes, only a 2-page one will do!) from any English law reports OR check out my friend's post here (www.sleepypurpleworld.blogspot.com/2005/09/english-judges.html).
And in addition to her theories, I would like to add another theory:
5) They can't even come up with proper names. We came across judges with names like "Cockburn", "Cross" and "Upjohn". I will not be surprise if in the future there's a judge called "Assburn","Tick" or "Downjack".
College Road Bullies.
These people are unbelievable...and frustrating, not frightening.
Half-way during Law of Succession lesson yesterday, the college security guard knocked on our class room door and asked whether KBK XXXX(altered for the interest of the real victim) belongs to anyone of us. Yes, it was one of my classmates'.
So she took her car keys and went out to move her car which was blocking another student's car. The guard was saying that they were really angry and were shouting.
The next time my classmate opened the class room door and enter the class room again, she looked shocked. Eleven pairs of eyes were on her (including Mr. Khoo's)... Then she spoke with a shaky voice :"They punctured my tyres."
Gasps!!!!! I thought :"What the f***??!"
OK, we all admit that my classmate was wrong in not leaving a note on her car stating her number, name and class. But these b******s have no right to do that to her car!! These Ah Beng's are really out of control! They could have been a lil bit more civilised...be a lil bit more patient and act gentlemanly like asking the guard to go around the college asking who's the owner of the car. And come on, that's not so difficult. IPG main campus has only 3 levels and 17 classrooms!
Wanna know something worse?
Another classmate of mine went down to check out the situation and returned with equally shockness in his face, saying :"They scratched her car also." And it's not a tiny one-inch scratch. It's the whole car!! Plus, they even left a very rude and vulgar note on her car, with all the chinese bad words you can find in the Bad Words Dictionary.
If it weren't for two students who witnessed the puncturing of her tyres, my classmate wouldn't even know it happened. And it is so dangerous!! What if she lost control while driving later??
Thank God, the lovely Mr Khoo immediately escorted her to make the complaint. And she left to a workshop to refill her tyres...3 of them punctured!!
The saddest part was...she didn't see the car plate number of that idiot's car. And therefore, she couldn't lodge a police report for this criminal damage.
So ppl, next time, please leave a note on your car(better inside because people can simply remove a note on the car) if you are blocking somebody. And watch out for their car plate numbers!!
All of us in the class felt outraged! But is there anything we can do?
I prayed to God. And He assuringly replied :"Don't have to do anything now. Events will go as God planned. Things happen for a reason, and don't worry about these bullies not getting what they deserved."
Half-way during Law of Succession lesson yesterday, the college security guard knocked on our class room door and asked whether KBK XXXX(altered for the interest of the real victim) belongs to anyone of us. Yes, it was one of my classmates'.
So she took her car keys and went out to move her car which was blocking another student's car. The guard was saying that they were really angry and were shouting.
The next time my classmate opened the class room door and enter the class room again, she looked shocked. Eleven pairs of eyes were on her (including Mr. Khoo's)... Then she spoke with a shaky voice :"They punctured my tyres."
Gasps!!!!! I thought :"What the f***??!"
OK, we all admit that my classmate was wrong in not leaving a note on her car stating her number, name and class. But these b******s have no right to do that to her car!! These Ah Beng's are really out of control! They could have been a lil bit more civilised...be a lil bit more patient and act gentlemanly like asking the guard to go around the college asking who's the owner of the car. And come on, that's not so difficult. IPG main campus has only 3 levels and 17 classrooms!
Wanna know something worse?
Another classmate of mine went down to check out the situation and returned with equally shockness in his face, saying :"They scratched her car also." And it's not a tiny one-inch scratch. It's the whole car!! Plus, they even left a very rude and vulgar note on her car, with all the chinese bad words you can find in the Bad Words Dictionary.
If it weren't for two students who witnessed the puncturing of her tyres, my classmate wouldn't even know it happened. And it is so dangerous!! What if she lost control while driving later??
Thank God, the lovely Mr Khoo immediately escorted her to make the complaint. And she left to a workshop to refill her tyres...3 of them punctured!!
The saddest part was...she didn't see the car plate number of that idiot's car. And therefore, she couldn't lodge a police report for this criminal damage.
So ppl, next time, please leave a note on your car(better inside because people can simply remove a note on the car) if you are blocking somebody. And watch out for their car plate numbers!!
All of us in the class felt outraged! But is there anything we can do?
I prayed to God. And He assuringly replied :"Don't have to do anything now. Events will go as God planned. Things happen for a reason, and don't worry about these bullies not getting what they deserved."
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